I really am learning as I am approaching 40 tomorrow how life throws you things and things can be one way one day and flipped the other. One thing I have always struggled with (now less then ever) is peoples opinions of me! I should have learned sooner that this! The only one we should worry about liking us or thinking good of us is the ONE TRUE GOD! He is really the only opinion that should matter! It isnt like that for me tho! I have cared too much if someone likes me, if they think Im smart, cute, clean! Ive had so many random times when people have actually called me fat! Why my cousin asks? I cant believe people would say tht to you! Its because god is really trying to work this out of me! loosing sleep if people think Im a this or a that! Hal the time or more than half the time they are right! I have lied! Therefore I am a liar! I have slept around therefore I am a....I dont know creep! Lol I have to realize more than ever that peoples opions change so fast about people! One day someone is the best thing in the world and one is praising how great you are even calling you NUMBER ONE MOTHER THEN BAM SOMETHING HAPPENS AND YOU ARE A BIG FAT JERK in their eyes! What happened to the hero I was yesterday!? I loved my dad to talk good about me! My ears tickled as he would boast about what a neat kid I was. In the end of his life he couldnt even say my name! Edas mommy he would say! Ask him Ray what do u think about Mary? You know what?! IT DIDNT MATTER! All that matters if we in the end hear god say WELL DONE MY GOOD AND FAITHFUL SERVENT! Aim your life to please him! He is more compassionate than any human being and has more love to give than any of us humans! Ya Im kinda having a really bad day! :(
Posted on: Tue, 02 Dec 2014 00:00:02 +0000
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