I remember a time when life was so very busy with good things. We had places to go, people to see, events to attend. We met ourselves coming and going. We watched our boys grow and enjoyed attending some sporting event almost daily, sometimes several events in a single day. There were those wonderful summer vacations where we could leave it all behind and just be together as our own happy little family. We had friends and family at our house constantly, if not we would be at theirs, or we would be going places together. Yes, we took some things for granted, probably a lot of things, but it was truly a blessed life. We thought that our boys would grow up, go to college and we would visit them and continue to watch them play some sport for just a few more years, then watch them marry the love of their life and someday enjoy grandkids. We had our dream all figured out...what a surprise we got instead. Now nothing is normal. We would just be happy to know that Kristi could remember what she had for dinner or that Austins heart monitor would give us normal readings at the next check-up, or if we could find out what caused Kristis heart to stop so that our boys could be medically cleared and we could stop living with this constant concern, or to sleep more than 4 hours in any given night, or for Kristi to be able to sit in the stands and watch Tyler play his senior football season, or Codys last year in middle school or to be able to go see Austin anytime we have the notion. Anything normal would be so nice. Selfish thoughts sometimes enter my mind...why is everyone elses life going on without us? Where has everyone gone? Those are real thoughts that creep in and steal away my peace BUT I know that those thoughts are not Godly thoughts, yet when Im running on empty and the world is caving in on me, those thoughts invade my mind. I just have to ask God to fill me with His Spirit and constantly remind me that this life is temporary and something much better is waiting ahead. I need to apologize for the lack of updates but Ive really been wrestling with some intense sadness. Finally I thought it best to let it go so that I could be productive again and request the much needed prayers from you for Gods healing in Kristis life. I know that God is still in Control, and I trust Him - Jay
Posted on: Thu, 14 Aug 2014 04:42:20 +0000
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