I sit here and I look back at the past several months and wow, this year has really had its ups and downs. I had to walk away from something I loved dearly, was left to feel as if I had abandoned those I cared deeply for, lost friends, made friends, had someone walk out on me who I thought was all in like I was, had others step up, witnessed the struggles of my friends and found myself unable to be anything more than a helping hand, moved into a new home, wandered into the darker parts of my own soul without ever losing my faith in its entirety, and put on the biggest event of KiR yet. Ive watched bands come and go, fallen in love with music just to beg it not to die on me... Ive put down my guitar for months, lost my way, found a new side of myself and grown up... a lot... Ive learned to hate myself, to love myself, to doubt myself and to believe in myself. Ive seen people finally step up and care for KiR like I do, sharing in the bigger picture and wanting to really put things in gear. Ive watched my wife go from loving a potential career to hating a job, all in the same place and all because of terrible corporate decisions that were made. Ive watched my daughter go to Kindergarten for the first day of school and leave with excitement every day, and Ive seen her come home and hold hands with a boy. Ive fought with my in-laws. Ive fought for my in-laws. Ive stood by my wife and children with the one big rule being that if anyone messes with them, I could quite easily unleash all of the anger I manage to hold in on that very person. Ive written short Facebook statuses tons of people have read and Ive written long ones like this that most of you wont read. Ive come a long way and now, I have a few questions to answer before the year ends... where am I? Where am I now and where am I going? Why? Whats the point, whats it all for? What do I do now? Where is everybody?
Posted on: Wed, 06 Nov 2013 21:06:22 +0000
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