I sit here in front of the laptop my work week now done and finally in a place to share my thoughts on the death of Robin Williams. The first being a meditation on the common phrase that tends to be heard when someone dies too soon and that is that their light has been put out and it doesnt seem to matter if it is suicide or other form of death. So, heres my take and a what if. What if we looked at it instead when someone we consider a light dies that their light either shoots up and out like a firework or in the case of someone like Robin a supernova and the energy goes to those around them. The other thought is that it is very hard to tell when someone is struggling with depression, especially if they work in a field where they deal with the public as part of their job. I work retail in a store where customer service is more than just being a body behind a register and you have to be able to keep your focus on the person in front of you no matter how much you dont feel up to it. To me being an entertainer in whatever form is the same thing, you do what you have to do to be who youre needed to be. I bring this up because those of us who are successful at this can be in the depth of the deepest depression and there are NO warning signs, nothing to give away that if we step just wrong on our tightrope were done, game over and no chance to reset. So next time you ask someone how theyre feeling and they give a half smile and shrug and say Im doing fine/ok/good believe them but be aware that it might be that they are only fine/ok/good because they are, in that moment. A final thought and acknowledgement, my reasons for being and for staying here are those of you reading this and the customers who let me know that Ive made a difference in their lives, thats not counting the ones who walk out feeling better and more like they can be at peace even if they never say anything. Each and everyone of you give me something to hold up and cherish when the darkness tries to come too close. Thank you for being in my life. Love you, Nene
Posted on: Fri, 15 Aug 2014 04:24:02 +0000