I spent some time this morning reading old chat histories. I felt so embarrassed I could just die... All those days and nights when romantic thoughts blinded my reason and I dreamed like a fool with a big, fat, heartful of faith in an illusion, a lie... I wish I hadnt said any of those silly lovie dovie things. I wish I had never ever given it a chance (by knowing me, youd know i had no chance). Why did I believe every word I read or heard? Why did I keep giving it the benefit of the doubt instead of the actual doubt? Why did I never suspect that people unlike me would lie? -- Even when they didnt mean to, they would. I wish I could erase every piece of my past and hit the button of replay, warning myself that I should not trust so easily... But then you have seen me trip on the same rock over and over again. XD Oh God (face buried in hands) when will I finally learn the lesson? I am so embarrassed I could laugh my ass off at my stupid self. I am so embarrassed I wish I didnt exist. XD https://youtube/watch?v=nkXOrkeZyqQ
Posted on: Tue, 21 Oct 2014 03:53:19 +0000
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