I stare at a screen lifeless trying to figure my life out Im sour like sauerkraut holding out for some handouts I pour another stout and I dont even like beer Im checked out I wanna get outta here so I close my eyes and blackout Im the opposite of stand out Im a stay in calling in to work so much that everyone is hollering I got everyone asking what my problem is and I dont have an answer I guess Im just a problem kid whats wrong with him whys he so immature its because Im insecure so I disappear to my room for a while then reappear reassured I figured it out now let me make this clear Im checked out Im a lonely loner longing for something different Ive always been a misfit since my father left when I was an infant everything changed in an instant I started acting out I didnt listen I would scream and shout there were walls I would throw my fist in but that was a long time ago I forgive him I understand shit happens I just hope he understands why I havent called him hes probably pissed and shit I was a problem child with a broken family 2 sisters who I never see and 2 who could never understand me and a mom whos worked so hard that now shes gone crazy in and out of the hospital its no wonder Im so lazy Im drained physically and emotionally I dont sleep at night because these thoughts of loneliness strangle me but I push through it I never fall I never falter I just do it shiro kami theres a beast inside of me and its coming out Ive had enough I cant help but shout shiro kami theres a beast inside of me and its coming out Ive had enough I cant help but shout shiro kami theres a beast inside of me and its coming out Ive had enough I cant help but shout
Posted on: Mon, 20 Oct 2014 06:54:36 +0000
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