I thought a lot about posting this...but what the hell... I never did have much in the way of filters. And maybe it will help. Someone other than me. And maybe even me. Invisible Me I am the writer no one reads. I am the writer no one knows about. I haven’t been discovered. I’ve been published, but little good it has done me. Yes, I did learn about book editing. I got some good covers out of it. From a bright start, I sank back into the ocean of the millions of invisible authors out there. We are multitude. I don’t know how we keep on. I guess there is always that spark of hope. That smidgen of sparks which fall into our laps and sets the fire, nearly dead inside, back to some tiny flickers. A good review. Five stars from Amazon. A FB message that means more than a thousand sales. We have friends who believe in us. Who send us hugs and emails. Family who wonder why we are doing this to ourselves. We see advice everywhere. Panels, workshops, articles. We try some, we ignore others. We shake our heads, take deep breathes and consider giving up. But to do that is to surrender. I often feel if the decision were taken away from me…if I had a nervous breakdown, it would be easier. I wouldn’t have to surrender, I’d be forced off the field. I sometimes dream of going all Thelma and Louise…not so much the killing myself as the driving in a convertible off into the desert/mountains/plains. It seems like it might be more restful. I don’t think I ask much. Enough sales to pay the bills I piled up on self-publishing…or going to conventions. Or buying swag. How about some good reviews? Some starts…some sign that I am being read by more than ten people. Not that I don’t love those ten people. They keep me going, as I wander through the world, invisible. Is it all about offending the right person? It is all about befriending another right person? If I blog more…If I do more Goodreads giveaways… If I use the metadata and sneak in names that would bring me up in a search engine. Do I write good enough? Or bad enough? Or is it just not my day…yet? That yet is what keeps me going.
Posted on: Wed, 17 Jul 2013 20:49:57 +0000
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