I tried to do a good thing, responsible and right, and it backfired and got me a bit of a lecture and rebuke. My well meaning did indeed result in error and caused another to have to bear a weight of finance, responsibility and labor. I never wanted that, I was trying in fact to be a help, and I messed up without knowing, without realizing, and it hurt me. Not the words which in actuality were reasonable, but the fact that my good intentions went flat with a heavy weight on them. I weighed out what had occurred and felt the burden of it all night. I was so disappointed in the outcome of it and hurt that things do not always go as planned, even when we mean well. It was a heavy unpleasant feeling, a true burden upon my head and heart. I could not shake how it was affecting me. I asked Abba for help with it and a remedy, if one was available at all. I went to bed heavy hearted, and then in the morning awoke with it being the first thing on my mind. I was burdened for a reason. I needed to sort it out with Abba, and deal with it. Pushing aside as done and over was not an option. Having the attitude of live and learn for next time, alone was not an option. There was a bigger thing in this somehow. Pondering it in a fresh new light of the morning I all but heard a voice say Use it for good and take the trouble and do not sit on it nor let is weigh you down, go and rise up and use it for good, DO THE RIGHT THING But what was the right thing????? In my circumstance, funds are low I said to myself. In YOUR circumstance funds are GREAT the voice in my heart said, and added, YPUR father owns the cattle on a thousand hills, glorify HIM with what you do have! and see His delight in it and do NOT be afraid to TRUST Him with your obedience to glorify His name with your responsible and kind efforts again in the matter so, I wrote a post as I decided to do the right thing and go take full financial responsibility for the thing, depleting my funds back to zero and putting my needs on the back burner, and knowing how that would be a very serious thing indeed. Directly after posting on being an overcomer and Do it I felt the warfare start, heavily. I wanted to back out of my conviction to go. Courage was indeed necessary to go, and I needed a full supply of it. I asked Abba for it. And I hoped within He would release me from my duty and say, Your heart is enough, never mind the effort of actually going but it was not the purpose nor the plan. I went, afraid and yet bold, scared and yet determined, I went to do the right thing. Help me father on my heart, mind, lips and even in my feet that carried me there. I went, and I spoke, and I took the responsibility and said I am here to right the error I made, tell me the total, with check book in hand hoping my account held the amount, hahaha!!! Shock and awe was on the face of the person, an absolute stunned expression. We had a most pleasant conversation and even chuckled at how life deals us blows now and then when we arent expecting it, and the person said they we so refreshed and pleased to the degree that they could not even begin to think of allowing me to fix it. We went back and forth and I said I trust this is the right thing to do and trust Yahweh in it to bless it in abundance in both joy and financially, and let me do it, but my offer was firmly refused with a great big smile and we agreed to chalk it up to good and blessed times. I almost danced all the way home, praising and worshipping and in total amazement of how Abba wants to bless us as we go even when we fear. Courage is not the absence of fear, it is full knowledge of fear and going anyway, DUE TO FAITH! Oh how hard we make things for ourselves at times when we think too much instead of taking action, I do anyway! LOL! Yahweh, El Elyon, El Shaddai, Father, I thank YOU for moving me today, for answering my questions and giving me direction and working things out so beautifully and I ask YOU alone to be my motivation always. That all I do and am and say are pleasing to You as Your delight, and that it bring me deeper into Your shalom, MORE AND MORE ! Thank YOU for knowing my heart better than I do, and for breaking it and allowing it to be discouraged that I may see Your Faithfulness and plan and hand, for remolding it more each day, keep me in that, yes, keep me in that always. Help me as my Only Helper, and make my life even MORE amazing always in YOU by the means You alone can prescribe! Toda, HalleluYAH. Maranatha, amein!
Posted on: Tue, 04 Nov 2014 19:05:44 +0000
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