I want to share a little something personal about my life! I am sharing this so maybe a few people can understand. On a July morning in 2010, I woke up and at 9 am I begin taking ambien, lyrica, xanax, soma, and hydrocodone,,,,people think suicide is a selfish act....I am here to tell you .....that it is not! I barely even remember the day...I do remember the pain. The pain of loosing my mother, Stephanie, Becca, and my girls! The fact that I had spent my birthday in jail....45 days....I had nothing to live for....I had hit rock bottom.....but did I stop popping all those pills......2 hydrocodones 10/650s, 2 350 mg somas....I could take that every 2 hours....just estimating....120 10/650s and 120 somas would last me not even a week....but I was on a mission.....to end it!! Thank God for my niece Candice Portis.....she saved my life that night and I am so grateful! I am glad I did not succeed in ending my life that night! But I wanted to. I never thought about how it would hurt my daughters....my father...my sister...my brothers.....I just wanted the pain to end.Sometimes the mental or physical pain is so overwhelming....it hurts to much to live!
Posted on: Sat, 30 Aug 2014 13:45:22 +0000