I want to share something with all of you that is quite personal, but is on my heart today. Yesterday was bittersweet, I so enjoyed watching my daughter open her presents and spending time with my wonderful family; nonetheless someone was obviously missing. The vacancy of my dads presence was heavy, almost tangible. In these moments I want to cry and be so angry at how everything turned out. In the mist of my dads battle, I never worried, I always had this sense of peace that everything was going to be ok. When I got the call that it was time for me to come to Oklahoma it literally knocked the air out of me. I NEVER saw it coming, my dad had just recently been told that he was cancer free. I did know at this time that my dad was in an immense amount of pain. It was Mothers Day Sunday and just an hour before that fateful phone call I wrote a prayer request for my dad to be healed of his pain. I knew as soon as I saw my dad many hours later, that it was going to be my last. I told him how much I loved him and what an awesome paw paw he was to Anna Claire, but I could have told him so much more. I was furious with myself for not being more specific in my prayer request, but I also knew that it was my dads time. My dad never would have been the same, he loved to work. I know that sounds crazy, but if you knew my dad, you knew how much pride he took in his hard work. My dad was never going to be able to work or do like he had in the past and deep down, I know that because of that, he never would have been truly happy. While I fully believe my dad is in heaven fishing, hunting, and relaxing, I can also picture him hounding Jesus to let him build, work, and just get his hands dirty. There have been plenty of times that I have become angry or resentful to those who God has blessed and healed of this awful disease; but in these moments I quickly remind myself that God did heal my father. He is now in perfect health and is joyously waiting our arrival! There is no greater joy than the thought that I will see him again!! Prayer is a powerful thing and I am so thankful that I have the gift of being reborn. I pray for health and happiness for all of my friends and family! I am blessed beyond measure with some of the greatest people and I am extremely thankful for that.
Posted on: Fri, 26 Dec 2014 16:24:52 +0000