I was asked to speak from my heart. It can be very difficult as what I really feel would be too much for most people to see. There is so much I want to say, too much to say; mainly I want to tell you how much I love her. Fraja is my sunshine, my moon and my stars. I waited so long for her. Fraja makes our world complete. I love the way her eyes light up, they sparkle and shine when she gets excited or happy and full of laughter. She dances around on her feet forever moving. The way she throws her head back and giggles loudly. I love the way she puts her arms around my neck and snuggles in for hugs and kisses. Fraja holds me so tight. I want to keep her there and just breathe her in. I wish I could protect her, shelter her from this vile monster cancer. I wish I never have to look into her beautiful face and tell her just one more time when we go to the hospital. I wish it had never entered our life. This week has been really hard emotionally for us as a family. Not just us her mummy and daddy, her sister and brother, her grandparents, aunts and uncles. Not to mention our friends. We all have a shadow hanging over us. Can you imagine having to face up to what your future may hold? No-one ever believes it could be them, but what if it is? Where do you start? How would you feel inside? Garry and I had started from scratch, no charity to support us, no money to get us started; it has come out of our own savings just to get this off the ground. We have had to make our own contacts, form our own bunch of committed helpers who have tirelessly given up all their time to help because they know and understand the love for your child holds no bars, we are working so hard together there are not enough hours in the day, going to places, standing outside with buckets having to ask people for money, explaining over and over why we need help, most people look on with sympathy, other shrug their shoulders and walk on by. I look around at times and the whole world is just moving along, I feel I am standing still. I want to scream out, I want to show the pent up anger I feel inside, and I feel so raw. Some days I get despondent, I want so many people to see what this cruel illness has done to so many children, some of them babies, I want people to follow Fraja’s journey if this help us reach even more people. I get so excited when we just get 100 new followers; I then know it is not all in vain. There has been a tremendous amount of good will out there; lots of people have been so very generous and kind. I will never stop until this ludicrous amount of money is there in the bank ready to get her treatment. I hope to god it saves her life, I just cannot imagine my life not having my little girl in it with me. I do not want to be an angel mummy, no mother does. My heart breaks for every one of them. Please if you think you can help in some way please message our appeal, we do need you, whether it is giving up some of your time and helping at bucket collecting or creating an event yourself. We are nearly a fifth of the way there but £500,000 is a lot to raise please help us before time runs out. Let’s give this little girl a chance at life....
Posted on: Mon, 19 Aug 2013 19:06:40 +0000
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