I was working today in my old hometown, I was speaking about our beliefs whether they be limiting or encouraging, I was speaking about our self talk and internal chatter which plays an enormous part in our way of thinking throughout our day and hence influences our tomorrows, our attitude and our results. I like to tell of my experience with my own self imposed limits and I relay the story of my return from Canada around 4 years ago. I returned home to Scotland completely broke, financially, mentally, physically and emotionally drained. I was at a low ebb and not for the first time, I made a mistake again and I was paying for it within my mind. My confidence was in tatters and my self belief and self esteem were at an all time low. I woke at night often, anxious and worried about my future, in a sweat, with the self talk of a defeated man. How could I have been so stupid? Im an idiot. Ive messed it up. Theres no way back now. Ive failed and let everyone down. Im starting all over and I dont have the strength. How am I going to manage? Ive no way forward. Theres no hope. I give up. I had to sit up and take stock, I had to take hold of my inner thinking, I argued with the stinking thinking and took hold as best I could, it took time and determined mental effort. I can do it Ive done it before I can do it again Ive got what it takes I have gifts and I can use them I am grateful for those gifts I intend to turn this around Slowly I began to use what I did have, some new thinking a refreshed attitude and a laptop. I began to write my quick read book, not knowing quite where I was taking it but believing I had something of value to say. I completed it and put it on Amazon Direct Publishing. I was beginning to feel good about myself but there was something I thought would improve the book, a great foreword by an Author of note, someone distinguished in the world of self help. Now at the time of writing this Lynda Field Life Coach doesnt know this story but Im sure shell love it when she reads it. I decided I would approach Lynda and ask for her help. Now in my mind I seen her writing it, I felt that she had done it and I could visualise the new cover with her name on it, I carried out the mental exercises to help me achieve this goal as though it had been accomplished. When it came time to send the request to Lynda my self doubt returned in a big way. My thoughts went like this: Lynda has written 17 books shell not be interested in me Im from Easterhouse, I failed English at school Give up, your book wont cut it with the big Authors, I fought the mental battle again and continued to instill the new goal and new supportive language. I went through this battle of mind games with myself for almost 3 months, continually thinking and believing as much as possible that Lynda had completed a foreword for my book. I held the message back, still experiencing doubt. Then a chance meeting with a friend turned my thinking into overdrive. My friend asked me what I was reading at present and I showed her the book. She then produced from her bag an old tattered version of a book she was reading, she had obtained from a car boot sale/ garage sale. It was of course one of Lyndas titles. There was no stopping me as I ran home to send my message. The foreword was completed within days and added to my book. We can work wonders when we trust and believe in ourselves and all that we are and have faith and patient determination. Lynda Field Life Coach and I are now great FB friends and I cannot thank her enough for her kindness, compassion and support and her enormous part in my turnaround.
Posted on: Thu, 16 Jan 2014 16:37:54 +0000
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