If August 22nd, 2013 taught us anything.. It is to NEVER leave the house without kissing the person you love goodbye. Exactly a year ago today, I never would have imagined that would be the last time I would see my boyfriend, that he would leave my life forever after telling me he loved me.. kissing me four times, instead of one, and telling me he would see me when he got home. He left for work, and he never came home. Losing Luke can only be described as heartbreaking which was only magnified by watching so many other hearts around you shatter, and not being able to do a single thing about it. I will never know what it is like to lose a brother and I pray to god I will never know what it feels like to lose a son and a mate.. But I am reminded every day what it feels like to lose the person you love the most in the entire world, your boyfriend and your best friend. All my love is sent to the Sporton family today; Chris, Keith, Matt, Jenna, Nicolle, Emily, Warren, Carlie, Cristian, Nana and their families. Thank you for all your advice, support, wisdom and comfort over the last 12 months. It is not fair that any family is broken, let alone twice. I hope you find comfort in each other and knowing that Kristie has some company in heaven with her gorgeous, cheeky brother. I have no idea how you do it, because just once was nearly enough for me. You are the strongest people I know, and an inspiration to the rest of us. Thank you for sharing Luke with me, I am grateful to you every day. There are probably a million people I would like to thank today, and that have played a part in me being here and how far I have come. Truth is I just spent 2 hours writing very lengthy individual thank yous but I cannot drive an iMac and that was deleted with one swift click of a button… FML. So expect a personal inbox over the next few days. Thank you to all my friends, new and old. Thank you to all Lukes friends, for your support during times when you yourselves have felt awful. Thank you to my family and Lukes family. Thank you to Jane, Em and my friends and team at Traralgon Veterinary Centre, even to you Emily H for leaving me here in Australia and going to England. Thank you Ernie and Jesse. Forever, thank you to Heyden. Thank you Gooda (Duke) for never leaving my side. Thank you to my wonderful neighbours, for making me feel safe when I am alone, just knowing you are there. Thank you Dan, it takes a pretty amazing person to pick up the pieces someone else left behind.. but an even better person to try and put them back together. Thank you Luke, for somehow making me smile every day. For loving me, letting me love you and simply being amazing in every single way. I absolutely adore you. Although I missed you so much there was a time I was determined to follow you up to heaven, now I tell myself that we will see each other again one day… and that I had better stop wasting my time moping around or I am not going to have any stories to tell you of my life between now and then when I get there. I want to say Rest In Peace, but I have lived with you and I know too well that life or afterlife with you will not be peaceful. Rest In Party - I love you Luke Sporton. I always will x
Posted on: Fri, 22 Aug 2014 04:05:57 +0000