Im not going to lie. I had a range of emotions today that surprised me. Im determined, but I sure had some defeated moments. Living in my head is complicated sometimes. =D Its entirely not beneficial for me to keep slamming myself for being the biggest idiot on the planet for giving in to an addiction....while knowing at the same time I was truly gripped by it for many years. And...what its done to me and our lives. Guilt is powerful. My body is in pure revolt becoming accustomed from taking no medications at all, to more than I ever wanted to see, but I am diligent in taking them as directed. Ive never been very good at free lance discipline...I have always been good with discipline under duress. I will be looking into some natural supplementation to boost my health/immune system too....not quack stuff....good stuff.....checking out things like Co-Q-10, Lysine, Pineapple....Im already taking a good multi-vitamin, vitamin C and fish oil now. Im eating good, healthy food. In fact tonight were having ham/bean soup and corn bread thanks to a loving friend who brought us supper. Dons home now from the wedding he worked on the side today, and I feel safe and much less anxious. =) I dont want people to feel sorry for me, ever. Frankly I dont have time for a whole lot of woe is me either. Im just surprised at the smack-down and I know those moments will happen. Im going to have a quiet supper with Don....a nice cup or so of tea....watch a little TV together....love on my furry babies....and count my blessings, and my friends are my blessings, and there are a whole lot of you. Im grateful.
Posted on: Sun, 09 Nov 2014 02:21:30 +0000
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