Im so glad this day is almost over...I wish I could say work went well but I didnt do as well as I thought I would...The girls I work with are so sweet and helpful but the work put me over today which was what I was afraid of. I barely made it to the last hour and the walk to the car was a rough one and once I hit the car I couldnt hold back the tears anymore. I feel like such a failure because it was day 1 and I can hardly walk...and its so hard to explain to others because they think oh its just day one it will get easier but with fibro it never gets easier and I dont know how to explain that to people. I dont want people to feel sorry for me or judge me and think im just fat & lazy,I really wanna be & feel normal but I dont. I have spent most of my evening crying and in pain I cant even describe and now I have to call my boss tomorrow and tell her I wont be able to hold up in Deli because I cant come home like this 3 to 4 days a week,my mind says I can and want to do it and my body told me that isnt the case,so I dont know what they will do with me now. Thank goodness Rachie came over so I could get Devins cupcakes done for bible school tomorrow..I took my night meds and im off to bed soon not much else to say,have to much on my mind and I just wanna call it a day.
Posted on: Wed, 09 Oct 2013 03:48:37 +0000
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