Im thankful that God blessed me with a loving husband. Hes not prefect,of course who is? Im certainly not. Back to my hubby,when he first gave his heart to Jesus that was it. Hes always been faithful. Both of us know that were undeserving of His love and Mercy. Up until the past couple of years,neither of us have missed. Now,I just cant do it. And the shame of it is,is that I love Bro. Calhouns Ministry as my husband does. My husband would be more faithful to the house of God,if it were not for me. He stays with me on Wednesday nights because he chooses to. And yes,it bothers him a great deal. I tell him all of the time to go ahead,but he hates leaving me alone all day and then me being here in the evenings alone. We certainly do our best to make up for it during prayer, and we hate this lifestyle. So many of our dreams are gone,and we both know that unless God heals me,its going to stay this way. Mark never complains,he says were in this together and its ok. We certainly dont get the chance to go somewhere when ever the urge hits. There has been many times weve planned vacations and had to cancel them because I couldnt leave this house. Hes told me that someone asks him where he was Wednesday night almost every Thursday,so Im going to tell you: he was laying here on the bed with me. We talk,laugh,pray,and feel guilty that were not in The House of God. My family would never post anything like this,but I get sick of my life being under a microscope. I promise you,if it were possible,Id be in church. And if it wasnt for the love Mark Farmer has for me,hed never miss anything. So,the next time you wonder where he is,hes sitting on the bed entertaining me. My familys mistakes,sins,whatever you want to call them, are ours. Just remember,while youre discussing ours theres been many times my family has took up for some of you. Weve done everything in our power to help you,when you were the one who was being talked about,we walked away and didnt join in. When some of you were treated like dirt,we sided with you and were vocal for your sakes. Ive reached my point. I truly no longer care what any of you think. This isnt for everyone,its an open letter to those who seem so curious about us. Ill tolerate almost anything,but not insinuations about my husbands love for God. I know how this man loves Jesus and how much he hates missing. It bothers both of us. I was under the assumption that praying,pleading the blood of Jesus,asking for healing and forgiveness for missing church was what was required in our situation. I had no idea that we had to explain ourselves to others. And yes,this reeks sarcasm. Please dont comment: I know that were loved by so many at our church. And we love you too! I adore Bro. Calhoun and while were on the subject,Ive apologized many times for missing. He knows and for whatever reason still loves us. And please no sympathy. Its not needed. Im angry and sick of certain things. I honestly dont need anything but for certain ones to back off and mind their own business.
Posted on: Fri, 04 Apr 2014 01:05:46 +0000
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