Im writing you to tell you that Im moving on. Which may or may not mean anything to you, but honestly that is beside the point. Writing this letter to you is more for my sake, and pretty much has less to do with you receiving it and more about me writing it. You see I am a true master at not dealing with things. Im sure you could see that, Im not fooling anyone so Im not going to fool myself anymore. I push all the hurts and the scars and the less than lovely things deeply in my mind to forget about. If I will have the chance to be with someone good. Someone who is genuine and has the time and patience to deal with a girl like me. Someone who I believe I can open up to, and not use whatever I say against me. Ive realized that I need to learn to love the things that are good for me, and he might very well be one of those things. So in order not to mess up this beautiful opportunity for happiness, I need to deal with us. Here I go... Closure is just a term created by people so they can ask the same questions over and over hoping that someday they might get a different answer. I dont need any answers. I never really understood why you didnt want me anymore, and perhaps I never will, but that doesnt really matter. Because the fact is that you didnt want me anymore. And all I can do is accept that. And I do, I accept that. Im not going to forget about you. Thats not my goal here. My goal is to be able to look back on everything objectively and remember the things I learned about myself and the things I learned about people and life without feeling the pain that goes a long with these kinds of things. So finally, this is me moving on. This is me wishing you well in whatever you pursue. This is me wishing you joy and happiness. And to one day, perhaps, being friends.
Posted on: Wed, 10 Sep 2014 08:02:41 +0000