#Insert 47 *** BKs POV *** (Everything she said got to my heart.. Over everything that was going on, I still loved her a lot.. I just lost her.. She was just.. I asked her to give me some space but no, she doesnt want to listen.. I went back to the house after her..) BK- I have to go.. (I got my stuff and left.. No one said anything, not that I needed them to say anything.. When I got outside, TK came running after me.) TK- BK.. BK- Yah.? TK- Are you sure you should be driving.? BK- Im not drunk.. TK- But your high.. BK- Even if I crash bro, it wont matter.. I have nothing to live for.. TK- Thats not true.. BK- It is.. Sharp.. (I drove off.. I wished that I could crash, just to spend a week or maybe a month in hospital and not see anyone.. I just wanted to be by myself and just think about everything.. I stopped at the tarven, took a deep breath and decided to go in.. I went inside and got 2 beers.. I knew what I was getting myself into, but it was the only way to feel better.. Even if it is just for the moment.. After those two beers, I got another two.. I closed my eyes and saw her face when she last spoke to me.. I left the beers there and went outside.. Your much better than this. I thought to myself.. Was I just lying to myself.? What is going on with me.? I never did this.. I dont smoke weed and drink, thats just not me.. I drove home and with God, I made it there alive.. I went inside, found my so called mom watching television alone..) Mom- Bokamoso.. BK- What.? Mom- Where have you been, Iv been worried sick about you.? BK- Lady, go make your own child.. Mom- Im sorry.. BK- Wheres Mike.? Mom- I... BK- No.. I know, she is busy comforting another woman.. Free advise, Mike is jerk and I am too.. You deserve better.. Mom- He.. He is with her.? BK- He didnt tell you.? Mom- No, he did.. I forgot.. BK- Please.. (I rolled my eyes and went upstairs to my room.. Tsholos picture greeted me when I went inside my room.. I felt like she was looking at me in dissapointment.. I felt like a disgrace.. I sat down next to it..) BK- What you looking at.? Im not your friend.. Man Tsholo, I messed up, big time.. Your father is an ass, he created all this bull shit.. I wish you were here, you would be here for me.. You would be leading me.. Mom was right, Im nothing without you.. Sometimes I feel like I should have died and not you.. You dont deserve it.. I did what I promised to never do, Im sorry.. I just.. I had too much to take in.. I know Im a man but.. Im also a kid, I deserve to enjoy my life and be happy.. I just wonder if your also Mrs Dlaminis child or, theres actually another woman.. Weed is actually good, no wonder people live on it.. I hope you can hear me becos I dont feel like an idiot.. No, I do feel like an idiot.. I have been living a lie my entire life and nobody cared to tell me.. Right now, I hate my life so much.. I wish I could just.. End it.. For everyones sake.. I.. (My phone rang and it scared the hell out of me.. I took it out and it had Mike written on the screen.. I went to the balcony and threw it to the floor.. I laughed like a crazy person after doing that.. I went back to my room and slept.. I woke up with another headache, it was killing me.. I took some tablets and it didnt get any better.. I looked for my phone everywhere in the house, when I went for my morning run, I found it outside.. You wont believe it but it was still like it was when I threw it out of the window.. I just shook my head and left it there.. When I came back from the run, I took it and charged it.. I took a long bath and drove to Mrs Ds place.. Mike slept there again and this woman wasnt complaining.. I knocked and Mrs D opened.. I went in and sat on the couch..) MrsD- Your father and I thought it was best for everyone.. I didnt want your father anymore and he wanted to move overseas to start a new life.. He wanted a child and your mother couldnt give birth.. Even though I didnt want him, I still loved him.. We agreed to separate you guys and not tell you for your sake.. BK- But I grew up here.. MrsD- You came back at a year old and... (I felt someone pass with some bags, I turned and found Rea.. Already at the door, where was she going.? I jumped the couch and went after her.. She just ignored me and got a taxi.. I went back inside and spoke to Mrs D.. She told me everything.) BK- And TK, did you tell him.? MrsD- If he was listening when I tried telling him.. BK- Ok.. Umm, where is Rea going.? MrsD- She is taking her stuff back home.. She is moving back to her parents house.. BK- What.? Why.? MrsD- She thinks it is for the best.. We are all going to miss her alot.. BK- Yeah.. MrsD- Thank you for hearing me out.. BK- I didnt do it for you Mrs D.. I just wanted to know the truth.. (I got up and left.. I hoped to bump into Rea and I did.. She wasnt alone alone, she was with my twin brother.. They are getting pretty close this days.. They were at her house, looking a bit cosy..) #Reh.:(.
Posted on: Sun, 05 Oct 2014 19:06:38 +0000
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