•••Insert #69••• I walked back home all happy I swear I was glowing. For a minute I had forgotten all about my problems, clearing the air with Banzi really was some therapy that I needed. At least now I had one thing less to worry about, all that was left was the dance. I had lost all hope that I would go, people were already half way with preparing for the big day and I guess I was not gonna have a big day it was about time I got into terms with it. I got home, washed my school clothes and locked myself in my room, mna ndonke ndandingafuni kutya I had no appetite. Ndaziva ndikhumbula umamam I think ngeyona nto eyandenza ndaziva umoya wam uphantsi not realizing it was around those dates when she passed away. I took my suitcase under my bed ndayivula and took out an old box that I had taken from home before I was taken to the orphanage home. It was my moms old box but my father had never allowed me to touch it nam andizange ndicinge ngoyivula since I ddnt know what was there. I took it out ndayibeka phezu kwebhedi and starred at it for some time. I laid on my bed ndayibeka apha ecalen kwam, I dont think I was ready to open it yet, what if ndibona izinto enkwakungamelanga uba ndiyazibona? I played a debate in my head whether to open it or not and seemingly ndabiwa bubuthongo ndalala. Ndivuswe yi knock emnyango ndaphakama ngomsindo njalo coz I thought nguBongi I ddnt know why wayengazivuleli ngesitixo sakhe or like always she had misplaced it. Ndavula zange ndibesajonga noba ngubani ndaphindela ebhedini ndazogquma.. SisY:Haybo ntombi uyagula na? Me:(removed the blankets) Ha.a sisi andibonanga ba nguwe bendicinga nguBongi SisY:Hay ndim bendithi ndizokukroba (sits on my bed) Me:Oh hay ndiyabulela sisYola SisY:Yhuu andidinwe kunini ndizula ndikhangelana nestationery skaNdoda kalok naye sezobhala I exams Me:Ufunda ban kanene? SisY:u9 kalok qha uyabaz ke abafana ngokungakhathali UNdoda wayengumtshana womyeni kaSisY.. Me:Yhoo hay ungandixeleli ngabo.. Ngoku uzozifumana njani? SisY:Hay umalume wakhe uzozisa pha Me:Ohh.. SisY:Kuthen ingathi awukhululekanga? Me:Hay ndi ryt sisi (ndatsho ngeliphantsi) SisY:Thetha nam sisi yinton? Yayininzi into endandifuna uyithetha kuSisYola, from the rape incident, the smoking, the break up with Banzi, Mr Steve, the dance, my second suicide attempt.. But with most of the things I couldnt, I just couldnt find myself to breaking the news to her so ndavele ndazulisa nge dance Me:Hay wethu sisi we having a dance party next week friday but I dont think Im gonna go SisY:Yinton ingxaki? Me:I cant go there, I have nothing to wear, my hair is a mess, I dont have a date and everyone will be looking all beautiful there, andinokwazi ube ndizijongisa ngabantu ndinxibisaka hay SisY:Haybo u only get these things once in your life, wena u even lucky that u even having a chance to go, awukwazi ukungayi kalok, this is your big night u have to be there Me:Njani sisi? Bazobe bebahle abantu pha I cant humiliate myself like that,(ndajonga phantsi ndithethela ezantsi) ngaphez koko andinyanzelekanga moss SisY:Well make a plan, m sure there are a lot of girls wholl be willing to borrow u something to wear pha enkonzweni Me:Andifuni ukusokolisa sisi u dont have to go through so much trouble for me SisY:Its worth it.. Now stop stressing wena eyonanto mawuyenze is to sort out your date qha.. Me:(smiles)Enkosi sisi SisY:Le box yona?? Yeyakho? Me:yayingeka mamam but I havent found the courage to open it, Im scared of what I might find SisY:M sure its just old pictures abantu bakudala babethanda ugcina ipictures zabo ezi boxin kalok kwakungekho zi photo albums kudala Me:(laughs)Hay zokhe ndiziphe ithuba ndiyivule SisY:Ok ke ntombi nam sendihamba ngok Me:Ok sisi ubulise ekhaya ke SisY:Alright ke lhalha She left.. Ndithe kanye xa ndizovula le box kwakhala iphone yam ndayibeka ecalen ndaphenduliphone Me:Hellow Banzi:Hii (whispers) Me:Banzi?? Banzi:Yhea at least u can still recognize my voice Me:Ofcoz cmon.. What? Dd u change numbers? & why the hell u whispering for? Banzi:Noo.. M using my moms phone Me:So u basically stole your moms phone? Banzi:Well technically I just borrowed it without permission Me:And what happened to your phone? Banzi:Aaah.. She has it.. Dont ask, long story... Me:Oookay I wont ask then Banzi:Well I just needed to call someone and u the 1st person I thought about Me:(laughs)Just be honest.. My number is the only one u could remember Banzi:Noot completely true but ok maybe.. So whats up? Me:(Looked at the box)None much m about to study u? Banzi:Waiting for mom to finish cooking so I can eat then study.. Worse ndonqena kanjan mnxxm Me:Me and u both hey.. Oh I wanted to ask u a favor Banzi:Ok shoot Me:Well I kinda need help with my P1 math, could u maybe help out when u got time? Banzi:Aaahh yhea ofcoz no worries Ill let u know Me:Uhm I kinda have another favor to ask Banzi:(laughs)Ok now u pushing it.. Me:Ah ok nvm Banzi:Cmon its a joke m listening Me:Well thing is I.. Its our prom night on friday and Banzi:(chuckles) So u basically asking me to be your date? Me:Well thats if.. Banzis mom (background):Heee Lubanzi iphiphone yam? Zuthi kanti uyithathile ndokukuhlafuna inene Banzi:Oh flip I have to go sobe sthethe... (Hangs up) Ndasuke ndashiyeka ndimi phakathi kweliwa nomlambo, he ddnt really give me an answer and I wasnt gonna assume that he was gonna say yes. Andiyaz ndandingenwe yinton kodwa I took my phone and called him on his phone I guess ingqondo yayilele ba ebethe ikumama wakhe Her:Hellow Ndaske nda locker awaphuma tuu kewona amagama kowam umlomo ndakhawuleza ndayibeka. Ndikhe ndibemuncu kenoko nam ngamanye amaxesha. To pass time I took the box ndayivula, it was full of old envelopes, I guess yayizileta, there were also old pictures of my mom kodwa ke ndabona nje her wedding photo with my step dad. Ndithe xa ndiseza kuphengulula ndakhwazwa efront and I just closed it and left it there wondering whose letters were those? What more was I going to find? :/ #Uviwe
Posted on: Sat, 01 Nov 2014 17:28:12 +0000
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