Ive had a very hard time with this and those words dont even describe it. MJ was not my blood relation but the relationship we had was bigger than that, he was the son I never had. I never ever in my wildest dreams believed he would ever be gone! Unfortunately I took that for granted always thinking I would be able to pick up the phone and talk to him, that he would walk in the door and say whats for dinner as he did so many times, or hey I brought you a salmon will you cook it. That I would get a text that said love you mom as he did so many times. That is not to be he was taken, taken in my opinion way to early. Its not for me to have the answers I just know I miss him with all my heart and soul. Who was this man who made such an imprint on my life..... He was genuine and giving, he was bigger than life always looking to put a smile on someones face. He was an actor a comedian he was passionate and talented, he was handsome and smart, but MJ was human with a disease and in the end the disease won. I will never know the answers I will never know why. I chose to believe he is at peace no longer in any pain, no longer fighting any inner demons those of us who have this disease know about the demons we fight. What I do know is what he would want me to do, he would want me to continue to carry this message, to open my heart and help other people to continue to love people unconditionally. To remember the joy he brought just by smiling. The way he could always make me laugh by talking to me in one of his voices. He would want me to live life to the fullest to love each other to hug my girls everyday and tell them I love them. Thats the kind of man MJ was, selfless and I will never forget the imprint he has made on my life. I love you MJ with my whole being you will be greatly missed but never forgotten.
Posted on: Sun, 02 Nov 2014 16:20:41 +0000