Ive read and heard much about the importance of surrender when on a path of spiritual growth and personal development. As in letting go, as in accepting what is. …And my intellectual understanding of the concept brought me nowhere, even though I had conned myself into believing I had got it. My self importance, a compulsion to be right, to try again and again to show others how my particular point of view or understanding was something valuable and helpful, this, this was anything but surrender. Look at me - I know shit, man. Im a good person who helps others and that makes me special. I was addicted to admiration and the approval of others. See me, see me, see me! - My ego implored. When rejected or ignored, my ego lashed out at the injustice... And then, I met myself. My heart of hearts - the one we all share. I met and found the love that was always there. The joy of being alive, aware and accepted within. It was always there, yet I never got it, always searching, searching, searching out there for acceptance, approval, love. See me, see me, love me, love me. And I surrendered without even trying. There is nothing out there that can replace what is inside me at my core. All I needed to get, is that in setting an intent of discovering happiness, I found it. It is there, in every breath, in every moment, naturally gracing my very existence. I know my words cannot do my grokking this any justice. All I can say is: let go of everybody, the need to steer, control or even help, and you too can find the peace and joy that you were born with. It is no greater a challenge than breathing in and out.
Posted on: Mon, 08 Sep 2014 14:59:00 +0000
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