Just got off the phone with my big brother Markus Raines (MOA) who saw that I was upset and called me. MOA has a family instinct and knows when I need him. We talked about shit Im not comfortable talking about with many people. He inspired me to keep going...just like he did 5 years ago, when I was first starting out....With all the direct message hate and comment hate Ive been getting in the last two weeks, I was ready to retreat in a hole, say screw all this hard work and retire my microphone. As much as everyone can tell you to F the haters, it catches up with you eventually. When its about things you cant change...physical things that you were born with...it hurts. I know you all have experienced this...but haters tend to come in flocks...all at once. I know every artist has these moments all the time...but this time was harder than all the ones before. On some I really cant do this shit anymore, Im exhausted with this shit. I didnt want to release this today. For many reasons, the biggest one is because I just had fun with this one. Its more braggadocios than anything. Most of the time I feel like Im under everyones magnifying glass and if Im not conscious all the time then its not good enough for yall. But here I am...Im still fighting and Im not going anywhere. Week 10: Every once in a while, I dont want to write anything real. I want to go off in to my head and write myself as a monster. A lot of rappers have alter egos and thats cool, but this side of me is apart of who I am. Its that extra confident, I can do anything, I will take anyone and Just try me part of me. This doesnt come out too often, Im pretty shy about my shit to be honest but there is something about a MOA beat that brings out the pure confidence in me. He has been a HUGE part of my journey. In fact, MOA was the first one who ever believed in me. He was my first collaboration EVER. We did a song together and then ended up doing an album together. He believed in me when I sucked (straight up) and he knew that I could do this and I have always believed in him. MOA will forever me my go to producer and my go to big brother. Hes family. So this one is for you big bro. I hope Im making you proud and thank you for believing in me...from day one. Love you. https://youtube/watch?v=aw0k5WK9jdY&feature=youtu.be
Posted on: Thu, 04 Dec 2014 05:03:45 +0000
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