Just something I want to share...I found out that my mother had cancer when I was 12. At the time I didnt understand what was really going on. After treatment started and I aged a little I finally realized she wouldnt be with us long. I was old enough to understand that in time she could pass away but too young to understand the hardships that were to follow her death. I spent a lot of time with her before her passing but watching my mother suffer from disease was probably the hardest part she stayed strong and tried to keep a smile and move forward. She use to say thing like you need to know this for when Im gone Id reply with oh mom dont talk like that youll be fine. I believed that if I said it enough maybe this would all pass and we could carry on with our lives. I was in 11th grade when things took a turn for the worst and she was admitted back to Hospital, so after a few days she was being released from the hospital but my mothers words to us were Im tired and this will be my last Thanksgiving with you and I can only stay to share Christmas Im tired and I cant fight this anymore talk about heartbreaking and being confused and thinking how does she know this...so weak that she could barely find the energy to make it to the bathroom.So being school was out for break I got to spend some one on one time with her...These days were the happiest sadist and most angry days Ive ever experienced. She told me stories and memories that we shared. I just kept thinking that she will be fine we will get through this. On her last day which was Christmas Day we kept prolonging opening gifts and she kept asking for us to open her gifts we all knew this was the day she would be leaving to be with our Heavenly Father I kept saying we can wait a little longer I would have waited forever, so we agreed because we knew it was going to be minutes and it was her time she couldnt fight no more and all I wanted to do is switch places with her, she was in so much pain, I can remember being so anger how could she be taken away from us on Christmas Day made no since to me...So for several years Christmas wasnt something I enjoyed until my babies were borned,To see your mother like this at a young age is very difficult I cant begin to describe the feeling. She was my world and there was nothing I could do to save her. Now that Ive grown up Ive realized that people live and die but I now have a angel and I know she is there watching my every move❤️ so in sharing this if your younger or older cherish every minute second you have with your parents never never take them for granted.😘Im not sharing this to make anyone sad because I know shes in a much better place👼🙏🙏🙏 AMEN❤️
Posted on: Sat, 06 Dec 2014 13:20:33 +0000
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