My boyfriend, Rod, has ended my relationship with him. Coming up to our nine year anniversary (Nine years. Nine years!) planned holidays to Germany and Canada, both our birthdays and Christmas... I didnt see this coming. I dont want us to split up. I am in love with Rod. He is my family. I am not OK. This is pretty much up there with the worst things that could happen to me. I dont usually post such personal things on Facebook... but I really dont want to tell everyone individually that Rod has left me, or talk about it in person with people. Weve not had an argument. He said, I have been having doubts for the last year. I dont love you any more. We talked for ages, but that was his unbudging position. There we go. I hope Rod changes his mind. I have never loved anyone like I am in love with Rod. I want more than anything for us to get back together... but I dont think this is going to happen. Facebook friends - loads of you I have met through Rod. I like all of Rods friends, I wont want to unfriend any of you. If you unfriend me - I understand and thats cool. Its awkward, I get it. Im not going to ask anyone to pick sides. I am not going to slag Rod off on here. Though of course I am currently having pretty strong negative thoughts about him, I still think he is brilliant. I want him back. That said, I have told Rod I am writing this status and I have told Rod I have Facebook blocked him. I dont want to be his friend, or see what hes up to, or know anything about him - he has broken my heart and I am shattered and I hope you all understand I just want to be away from him now. Its like a death, isnt it? Nine years - gone in just one day. Three days ago we were at his flat with a load of cool people, chatting, watching Doctor Who and having fun. I dont think anyone would have never known from Rods behavior what he was thinking or planning. I didnt. I feel so loved by so many good friends. The people I have told in person have been so great with me and I am being very well looked after. Thank you. I have been lucky to have had Rod. Rod has been lucky to have had me. I am awesome! I believe he has made a huge mistake ending something so rare and so good. However, that is his choice. I have tried and so far failed to change it. We have talked and talked and i want him back but I am not going to beg. Poetry, tae kwon do and friends..... I have loads to occupy my time with so occupy my time I will. If you see me and im not the cheeriest Ive ever been in my life, you know why. Love to everyone, d x
Posted on: Tue, 21 Oct 2014 06:04:38 +0000