My love, 27 years ago today, I married the man of my dreams. I remember so clearly the first time I saw you. Some people say there is no such thing as love at first sight, I would say they are so wrong, because I loved you from the moment I saw you. I could see a gentleness in your eyes like no other. I didnt even know your name, but yet I had a dream of you that night, and in my dream your name was Tom. When you came back in the restaurant where I was working two weeks later and asked me out on a date I knew that we would be together forever, and so did you. That was August 1, 1987, and on October 17, 1987 we were joined together before God, our family and friends for eternity, just 2 1/2 month after our first date. I remember our first date. We went to the Spaghetti Factory in San Diego. I remember you taking my hand as we walked across the street and my heart leaped in my chest at the simple gesture. I remember driving up the hill and the song, Youre the Reason God Made Oklahoma came on the radio, and yep...we sang along and laughed until my belly ached. I knew that night that my life would never be the same. When we said our vows I never imagined in my wildest dreams that our life together would be cut so short. 27 years may be forever to some, but for me I just thought we would grow old and gray together. We said that day, till the wheels fall off. Yes, we had our share of flat tires along the way, but because of our commitment to God and therefore to each other we held on and fought through the hard times. Our first child was born, Jared. You were such a good Daddy to him. I remember you sitting in the floor with him for hours working his legs and arms trying to strengthen his weak muscles due to Down Syndrome. It was hard, it was rewarding. You were, and still are, Jareds hero. To this day every picture he draws the central figure is a man with a beard, its you. Then along came child #2, John. I remember how the manager of our apartment would come outside every day at 3:55 to wait to watch you come in the gate because he said he had never seen a man so excited to come home. You walked on the air with joy to see your son. He was your boy. Several years later we were blessed with our daughter Rachel. I had prayed for a daughter, you had prayed for one just like you. Both our prayers were answered the day she was born. Our lives were forever changed the day you were diagnosed with cancer. Our vows taken so many years before were all being fulfilled with your diagnosis. For richer for poorer....the financial toll the cancer took on us is with me even today. In sickness and in health....its easy to walk along in life when everything is good, but when the hard times came with the cancer, we only grew stronger in our commitment to each other, our love grew in a deeper way that words cannot describe. And then came, till death do we part...we have parted physically from your death, but spiritually I know that we will be together again in eternity because of our commitment to God. You taught me so much in this thing we cal life. I am truly a better person because of you. When you died, half of me died with you, and now I have to figure out who I am again. There is an old Garth Brooks song that says it all for me, yes, its the song I always used to tell you that I would want played at my funeral one day. But today, its how I feel about our life together: Looking back, on the memory of, the dance we shared, beneath the stars above. For a moment, all the world was right. How could I have know that youd ever say goodbye. And I, Im glad I didnt know the way it all would end, the way it all would go. Our lives, are they better left to chance? I could have missed the pain, but Id of had to miss the dance. Holding you, I held everything. For a moment, wasnt I the king. If Id only known, how the king would fall, hey whose to say, you know I might have changed it all. But I, Im glad I didnt know the way it all would end, the way it all would go. Our lives, are they better left to chance? I could have missed the pain...but Id of had to miss the dance....... We got our last dance didnt we? At your nieces wedding...I never thought that would be our last dance...but Im thankful to God that we had it....We had it all didnt we? I miss you honey. Its strange. My entire being felt today coming. I didnt need a calendar to remind me that today was our wedding anniversary. I sat in your robe this morning, smelling your scent, calling your cell phone..my heart broken into a million tiny pieces. I honestly dont know how to go on without you, but I will continue on in this thing called life. Because I promised you I would..because our children still need me...because God isnt finished with me yet....but honestly, I look forward to the day when I get to go home-home and be with Christ and be with you........ I love you honey........forever your wifey.............
Posted on: Fri, 17 Oct 2014 16:16:21 +0000
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