My sweetest downfall Hes my bestfriend during our high school days. Hes always there whenever I need someone to talk to, to laugh with and to be with. Ive always ended up with him even after my shity relationship w my exes. Hes always there to catch me on my painful downfall. I have a feelings for him, of course. But Im so afraid to take one step bcoz of the possibility that I might lose him if it didnt work. So I ignored my feelings on him. And then day comes and he confessed his feelings for me. Take note: Its our friends who told me his feelings for me. Hes torpe, ya know. - So yun, naging kami. But I cant understand myself, why do I feel so awkward? I dont know why. It feels like mas okay yung feeling ko nung friends lang kami. And so I ended up breaking up w him. He felt lonely. He accept it. Me too. I love him, but I cant tell why Im feeling like this. After nth months we continued as bfriends like nothing happened. Until day comes na may sinagot ako sa mga nanligaw sakin. Then after ilang months, niloko ako nun. Of course I was hurt. I ran at him, he helped me to moved on. Fourth yr na kami. We tried again to take a step to our relationship. And then, it didnt work again. Same feeling. I felt awkward again. Di ko nanaman naintindihan sarili ko. We broke up. He was hurt, I saw it in his eyes. Iniwasan nya ko. I love him. Yes, but I dont understand myself. I hate this feeling. And I dont wanna lose him. Until one day, nagka-boyfriend ulit ako. Mahal na mahal ako nun. Hes a serious type of guy. Mahal ko din yun. Pero bakit parang may kulang? Hanggang sa almost one yr na kami, nang makita ko si ex/bestfriend na sobrang happy w other girls. I felt jealous. At di ko alam, pero bakit parang ansakit-sakit? :( Hanggang sa dumating yung mga araw na nag-aaway na kami nung boyfriend ko. Narealize ko na, kung sya ba yung boyfriend ko ngayon, siguro ang saya-saya ko. Gaya nung mga girls na kasama nya. :( A week before graduatuon, nakipagkita ako kay ex/bfriend. I told him my problem about mybf. Nakinig sya. Dun naramdaman kong may natitira pa syang pagmamahal sakin, mali. Mahal pa nya talaga ko. I was so confused that time. Gusto ko na bumalik sa kanya. Pero pano yung isa? Ayoko makasakit. Pero sabi nga nila. Wala naman daw madaling paraan para gawin ang break up. So I ended up breaking up w my boyfriend and went back to my bestfriend. Now 2 years na kami ni boyfriend/bestfriend ko. :) I know marami akong naging kasalanan at sakit nabinigay sa knya but he still chose me despite the fact na andaming taong nanghihingi ng pagmamahal nya dati. Ni wala nga syang ibang niligawan simula nung nagbreak kami. Im so lucky to be his first, and I hope, his last. (Admin, sorry mmk. But Its worth reading for naman dba? Hihihi. Thanks much!!! :) :*) Magdalene 2012 Education
Posted on: Fri, 24 Oct 2014 07:00:00 +0000
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