OH **#@%$^&***&%&%&!!!!!! OOPS, I FORGOT AGAIN - YOU LOVE ME FOR ME & I LOVE YOU FOR YOU! Today I attended the Mass of Simple Profession of Vows for the Dominican Friars of the Eastern Providence. It was a good thing that I spent some time beforehand in the church present with Jesus loving me...I was going to need it! It was a beautiful Mass but, as the Mass proceeded, so did the storm, with it turning into a hurricane for a while afterwards...the inner hurricane that is! I spent a few hours trying to keep my eyes on Jesus and not sink under water as did Peter before Jesus reached out His hand and caught him (see Matthew 14:22-33). A few years ago, I was planning to take vows for a religious community with that plan changing in a matter of seconds. Now, each situation is different, but here are some analogies of what its like for some women who have been in religious life & then had to suddenly leave: Its like living with your boyfriend before marriage and having given him everything and then shortly before your wedding day, he calls it off & breaks up with you. Its like losing many members of your family all at once, having them die suddenly & without being able to say goodbye to many of them. Its like a vet having traveled to a foreign land who was planning to give his life for his country but instead finds himself missing a limb and then returns home to discover that everything has changed & life has gone on around him as if he had died. Its like being invited to live in a house closer to the gates of Heaven and then being pushed out a window & landing in a pile of manure. Its like being stripped of your clothes (habit) and feeling initially as you are walking around naked with people staring at you. Its like being in your mothers womb where its quiet and then suddenly finding yourself in the middle of a busy intersection with cars honking loudly at you (and yes, maybe even while you are still naked!). I admit, now that its later at night and the storm has passed, this was kind of fun for me to type! Thank you Jesus for Eucharistic Adoration. Kneeling tonight on the floor of a chapel in front of His gaze, I sensed God loving ME as ME and peace returned. The foundation of any vocation (marriage included) is our relationship with God and knowing that He loves us the way that we are. How important it is to daily turn to Him in prayer & to be honest with Him when the storms arise, calling out to Him for help so that He can reach out His saving hand. Thank you Jesus for loving me as I am. I love You as You are. Receive Me https://youtube/watch?v=PgGUKWiw7Wk#!
Posted on: Sat, 16 Aug 2014 04:47:33 +0000