Obedience. Today, I failed a test. No, it wasnt a math test, though I would fail one anyway. It wasnt a school test. It wasnt even a test of the emergency broadcast system. It was a test of my obedience. You see, Ive been sick in bed since Wednesday, and naturally, my resources and health aids have been running low, so today, having what little energy I had, and what little money I had, I decided to go to town, put a small amount of gas in my car just to keep it running, and get some groceries from our local dollar store. I had $20 to spend. So, I went to the gas station, put $10 bucks in, and was going to spend the rest on groceries and what healthy food ( well, as healthy as I can find at a dollar store ) I could get. I walked into the store, grabbed my basket, and shopped. Milk, non sugar coated cereal, pasta, and sunny d. Everything else was more loaded with sugar, or had less bang for my buck. I paid at the counter, and came out holding $2.90 in my hand. As I walked past the front of the store, bags in my hand, I overheard a woman, asking the man she was with, if he had a dollar he could spare. I looked down at the 2 dollars in my hand, and decided I wasnt going to stop and give her money, as I could be accused of eavesdropping, or worse, maybe she didnt ask him for a dollar, but was saying something else, and I perceived it wrong. As I got to my car, these thoughts were rushing my head, when suddenly, I was told to give her the money, from God himself. His voice, his presence, his push on me was all felt immediately. What did I do? I looked at her own bags, to which she had just come out of the very same store with, and rationalized that she didnt need the money, because of the contents in her bag, and how I felt that nothing in her bags looked like needed items, only frivolousness after the fact. So, I got in my car, and drove away. The entire drive home, I felt an overwhelming sense of having failed. It wasnt my choice to question what I was asked. It was my command to do as I was told, in obedience to Him. So often do I ask of Him, and so little does He ask of me. And in this instance, just the smallest of tasks, I let my judgmental self get in the way, and didnt do the thing that was required of me. How often do you fail the very same test?
Posted on: Sun, 06 Apr 2014 23:22:44 +0000
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