Of all the triggers that are out there - for some reason smells are the most intense. The hardest reaction to control and recover from. Im sitting here in my office with lavender oil to counteract my trigger, yet still completely knotted up. Consciously I am aware of what is happening and why, but my body is calling bullshit on my mind...saying Run!! Hide!!. The power of our internal chemistry is greatly underestimated. People do not understand how difficult it is to manage this crap. Its like trying to drive a car that, at any given moment, loses power steering and brakes. Going to try meditation, which I know will help...but at the same time is also extremely difficult. Also fighting the notion of another wasted day - a day spent pulling myself back together. What I WANT to type are things about how much this shit SUCKS, etc., etc. However, Im pretty sure everyone who might be reading this has a pretty good grasp on that fact. I know the power of positive self-talk, so thats my anchor. I am ok, even if I dont feel like it. I know whats happening, I know that this is a battle that I will win. A day spent fighting for my own well-being is not a day wasted. It is a victory. I look forward to the day where I no longer celebrate anticipated victories, but long-lasting PEACE.
Posted on: Tue, 09 Sep 2014 21:35:49 +0000
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