One year ago tonight, I should have died....I almost did die....I only told a few people when it first happened and no one else since then......I just need to vent now because it is one year exactly....(actually, this happened after midnight, so technically, I almost died between 1:00AM and 3:00AM on December 22nd, 2014)..... I rarely go anywhere, but a year ago today, I felt good, healthy.....one of my closest friends invited me to spend the day in West Chester, Pennsylvania......I surprised myself by agreeing.....this was a very close friend, a best friend, of many years....a person I trusted fully......we had a nice day, seeing sights, getting food, etc......it was a long drive, but we laughed all the way down there.......I was just getting very sick from medication, so this was all very good for me..... I prefer not to name my friend......some of you here (a very few) know him.....on the way home, he literally almost caused both of our deaths......I wont get into the reason for this either......but lets just say that I SHOULD be dead now...we both should be.....for two hours of horror, I could not believe how he was acting.....the first hour, I prayed frantically for the Lord to spare me.....then I realized there was no way for us to survive, that my death was imminent.....I knew I would go immediately to be with Jesus, so I calmed down and accepted my fate....I began to pray for my family....that they would be OK when they heard I was dead.....that they would somehow come to love and trust Jesus as a result of this......I was at peace because I knew it would be over any second....... and yet, the Lord spared me.....He spared both of us.....we should not be alive today....it is nothing short of a miracle that we are.....it is like I fell from an airplane and just got up perfectly fine......I SHOULD BE DEAD.....but the Lord had other plans for me...... I got very sick just a couple of weeks after this (many of you will remember this)......I was not on Facebook for months, but my faith grew during my trials......it grew very much......and for that, I am grateful for the trials....they were blessings to me...... it took me most of the year to forgive my friend.....our friendship is over....it was over that night....I no longer want to be anywhere near him, so fellowship is gone......but forgiveness? yes, I can say that I DO forgive him.....and that did NOT come easily.....what he did was intentional, nearly murder......but up until those two hours, he was one of my best friends for many years....I missed the friend I USED to have.....but those two hours nearly killed me....I didnt want to forgive....I wanted to hate....but the Lord commands us to forgive even our enemies.....I could never have done this under my own power, but when I let Gods Spirit help me, I was able to let go of the anger, the hurt, and forgive this person.......I even reached out a few times, but got no response......that is probably for the best......he claims to be a Christian, but he cannot even define what that means.....so I have my doubts and I do pray he gets saved one day.... There is no real point to this status, except the timing: one year ago I was having a lot of fun, something I rarely do because of health issues, and a few hours later, I was nearly killed......instead of celebrating Christmas in a few days, my family should have been picking out my coffin......yes, it was that serious.......the fact I am alive now is nothing short of a miracle.........and this is all vividly running through my mind now.... I needed to vent, so thank you for letting me do that......the lesson of this is: God is always FULLY in control......I learned that a year ago in the scariest way possible......another lesson is we MUST forgive all who wrong us, no matter how we feel or whether we even want to......the Lord commands it....... I have already written WAY too much, but there is so much I am leaving out......I could write for pages about the details of that terrible night.....but there is no need.....I prayed over whether to write this or not.......I never mentioned it once here in the last year......I did tell some friends and my immediate family, but thats it.....I thank God for sparing me that night....... and with that, I am done.......thank you again for letting me vent about something that has been heavily on my mind for one year exactly....... 70 x 7 Love in Christ, Johnny PS please pray for my former friend, as he needs to know the Lord....thank you....
Posted on: Sun, 21 Dec 2014 23:59:08 +0000
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