People have wondered, some have asked why I moved to Houston. There are many reasons all of which affected my health. Hence Houston was the place I felt the most at peace when I visited here. To mention all of the reasons would be much. I dont wish to make this a massive missive { based on the words of one who could stand to apply this in his own life Pbbt } would say. So to make this the most concise I wish to share my womens club speech here. The subject was health and of that I know much. It speaks of how I needed to set the Temple of God within me right to make all the other aspects right. I pray it will inspire others by allowing my own trials to speak for themselves. Hence the title Restoring the Temple by Yisraela Early this year, the simple and direct truth of Benjamin Franklins words resounded loudly in me. Dost thou love life? Then do not squander time - for thats the stuff life is made of. My life has always been focused on accomplishments. I have spent vast quantities of time in their pursuit. Months prior to moving here, God made it apparent, the time I had wasted allowing cumulative and negative effects of decades of abuse to overwhelm my mind body and spirit and cast me into utter darkness and despair. The road ahead was death. Battling Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, Anxiety, Major Depression, Night Terrors, Insomnia, Two serious heart conditions, and a Hypothyroid condition, over the past five years, left me in a place where energy failed me and darkness overpowered me. To add to despair, my marriage of 28 years, had been fraudulent from its origin.And despite my efforts and prayers, nothing fixed it. I ceased exercising. I ate to pacify unfulfilled needs. I gained 30 pounds. I was chronically fatigued and stayed in bed 12 hours a day. The guilt of not attending Sabbath, Holy Day and Feasts overwhelmed me. I couldnt imagine how I could be the person others had come to know, when I had lost so much of myself. Then a sermon, Directions to the place of safety, by Mr. Cielsielka, changed my life. With tears I cried out, why would you choose me anyway God? I have come to nothing. In love He lifted me up. With a tear stained heart I made a covenant with Him that I would neve allow anyone or anything to keep me from the Kingdom again. See God was the thing I feared losing the most. From preschool on, I knew God. I didnt know His name. I felt Him, talked to Him and He answered me. Without God I wouldndt have survived my childhood. As Psalms 22:10 states, from my mothers womb He was my God. The first Sabbath and Holy Day I had attended in years, was Pentecost- right here. I wanted so adly to meet Mr. Meredith. Seeing Mr. Meredith so frail in body, yet so strong in spirit, tearfully humbled me. If he could do all he did, I had no excuse. The positive effects this journey has produced, has been the best trials of my life. I no longer have night terrors, feel angry or depressed as I did. My relationships are healthy and centered in God. I have significantly altered my diet and no longer stress eat. I have lost 22 pounds. I walk a mile and dance up to an hour each day. I sleep like I havent in years. And I feel alive. My two heart conditions? Diagnostic tests now reveal they no longer exist. I walk the path of service of others. No matter what adversities befall me, God will carry me through every challenge. The answer to the question, why would God choose me? Is this: because my many mistakes have deepened my conviction. My example can give hope to those who feel they are nothing or have nothing to give- for if Gods spirit can work through me, it can work through anyone. And the Temple? Is under restoration. Thank you for your time Yisraela
Posted on: Wed, 05 Mar 2014 01:14:33 +0000
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