Perhaps I need to lean again more heavily on music playing. It is the one release for my stress and racing thoughts that works better than any prozac-like product ever has. Once again in a relationship, I am FRANTICALLY chasing money. Morning noon and night. 24/7 I am stressing for the $. I dont want to learn a new song or pick up my guitar because I should be figuring out how to get more money. I am TRYING DESPERATELY to own the car I am driving, and gas it and insure it. I am also dealing with (irrational) pressure from my landlord/housemate (who is a SUPER cool guy) who FREAKS about the bills even though I have paid them (from thin air, sometimes) on time every time for very nearly a year. I am stressing big time lately, and money is the reason. I am not projecting confidence, and THAT more than anything else is causing stress for those around me. I wear my heart on my sleeve. I always have. Unless I can play some music, release that stress and regain my poker face, I think this will just build. I honestly think that everyone at work, and everyone at home understands and is rooting for me ( I found out to my surprise today, that 2 different departments want me to work for them). That is EXTREMELY nice, and I am not sure I deserve it, but I have to address this money issue, and I can do it better with less stress. I think I need to play some music and relax, in order to focus. It seems to be the one thing that works. Open Mic night therapy here I come. I have a car to get there, now. (writing this to remind myself)
Posted on: Sat, 03 Aug 2013 02:07:29 +0000
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