Please bear with me. I am not a writer or a lover of words unless they are written or spoken by someone other than me. :) I get asked all the time, How do you do it? In all honesty if I am asked this question, I have failed. I say Ive failed because that means my suffering has not brought the kind of glory that God rightfully deserves. I suffer because Ive been called to suffer. Yes, you read that right...called to suffer. Ive spent many moments wondering why and asking God to reveal His purpose for my life. I do not believe God wishes suffering on anyone but I do believe he ordains it. It is what we choose to do with our suffering that matters to Christ. We must ask ourselves if our goals in life drive us to obedience in Christ or if our goals are merely a distraction that drives us further from this obedience. Our faith in Christ is more important to God than the riches of this world or the comforts of this life. Finding comfort in being uncomfortable is a difficult task to manage. :) I have pain everywhere in my body and especially my head. My body is fighting around the clock to try and heal itself which in turn leads to exhaustion. I wake up every morning knowing the pain Ill face for another day. This reality never goes away. I dont have a magic pill or a light at the end of this tunnel that promises renewed health here on Earth. I get up every morning because that is what God is calling me to do. I get up because I have the hope of salvation. My hope does not rest on the healing in this world which is an uncertainty but my hope is in Gods promises of salvation and that certainty NEVER changes. I use the strength in me to choose joy and this joy brings me peace. It is not easy to choose joy because even though I choose joy, I still fail everyday (Just ask my husband and kids). I lose my patience, I lose my temper, I lose my desire to keep going and my desire to fight this illness. I often find myself in a state of frustration with no direction. But for this, I will simply have to rely on the grace that God has promised to me. There are so many accounts of suffering in the Bible. Suffering that was caused in an unjust way. Gods led many out of suffering in order to reveal His will for our lives and I firmly believe he will do the same for my family. But for now, I will suffer knowing that one day I will redeem the promises that are offered to me by my heavenly father. This is how I do it everyday. The Lord will fight for you; you need ONLY to be still. Exodus 14:14 https://youtube/watch?v=EmxvZ-MCxTk
Posted on: Sun, 09 Nov 2014 18:57:26 +0000
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