Question to Any brave enough to answer. ;) ( This topic was not brought up by any of my Facebook friends. This person does not have a Facebook ) I wish this hadnt hurt but it did. it was good in the end. So....... Has anybody ever told you that God was not with you? Has any fellow Christian ever said to you Well it appears God is not with you Ive been a Christian 21 years Ive known him since I was five. I first gave my heart to Jesus when I was 12 and I was then baptized. I remember getting to have my first communion. It was a deeply moving event in my life. I became a spirit filled Christian in March 1992. So I guess technically you could say I have walked with God and I loved him, cried out to him for 41 years of the 46 Ive been alive. Now mind you, of those 46 years Ive spent every single one in abuse. Nowhere in the word of God does it say that he is not with me Because Im Abused. This comment did not come from any of my Facebook friends. Sadly it came from somebody that I thought loved me. I Have known for some time this person was controlling. Honesty matters very much to me so when I find myself pulled into little white lies because somebody keeps telling me what I should do I again people pleasing them yada yada yada I found that this is a controlling persons Tactics. On the bright side this experiences taught me how stupid I used to be. He had me isolated for the last 10 years. Oh I worked weekends and went two nights a week without sleep eight months of the year Building a very successful and greatly loved pie business. But I was dog sick. And I was getting sicker every year. My life was working and then resting in bed trying to gather the energy to do even daily tasks. I had weeks I was unable to bathe myself. Not because of depression Not that I wasnt depressed, it was Because I wasnt strong enough to lift my arms or to take a bath by myself. Some days I was too weak to feed myself. My mitochondrial doctor told me if mitochondrial disease had made me that sick I would still be that sick. You do not recover from mitochondrial disease. Now dont get me wrong I still suffer from this disease. However I do not suffer at the same level I did under his care. If I remember correctly he couldnt work because he had to take care of me. I have been on my own for 18 months. I do not need anyone to take care for me. Not that way. So.... Please forgive me but its been a very,very hard week. I wish so bad I could tell you all Everything thats happened. All I can say at this point is If God was not with me I would not be speaking to you now. I stand in Amazement at the power of my God. He is mighty to save. Im not sure what Im supposed to do next. I think I have a good idea. The one thing I do know, God is with me. Hey promised to never leave me or forsake me and I dont see why I would be the only one Of his children he would do this to. So now I need to forgive. Mostly I need to forgive myself. Love and peace to you all.
Posted on: Sun, 03 Nov 2013 06:15:30 +0000
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