Random non-goofy post. As many of you know, Ive spent most of the last three years in solitude, mostly thanks to my DUI and accompanying lack of transportation. Granted, while this hasnt been the easiest time of my life by far, Ive come to realize that its the best thing to ever happen to me. Since I was 13 or so, I struggled with depression almost daily. Never liked myself, always looked for happiness in the arms of others(hence my frantic pace of dating different people for a while). These past two years or so, being stuck at home alone for the majority of the time, Ive finally learned to be happy by myself for the first time.. hell, possibly for the first time ever. And these past few months, despite a sub-par apartment and a non-desireable financial situation, Ive still been happy, for no particular reason. I no longer need the excuse of being single being the root of my unhappiness, for I no longer rely on that type of pseudo-symbiotc source of happiness. Im just happy on my own. And Im finally comfortable with being single, as well. Hell, its about time.. been single for about 5 years now, and finally.. finally it doesnt bother me. Except for when I first wake up.. I miss waking up to someone beside me, probably always will. So from about 5:30-6 in the morning, Im all.. meh, itd be nice to feel someone close. From 6am until whenever I go to sleep that night, however.. its all gravy, man. :) lol. Also, shout out to all of you(the proud and the few :p ) who stuck by my side when I literally went to having nothing, and are still around now as I continue to better myself. I may not call as much as I should, but I do love you all. Each and every one of you. #RandomThoughtsOfTheDay
Posted on: Tue, 29 Jul 2014 18:54:44 +0000
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