So I wondered why am I up at 3 am? And after a while I realized it is 8 days away from the third year my Aunt Dee went on to her next journey. She was my aunt, she was my mentor, my cheerleader, my knight- in- shining armor, my hero and very often like a mother. But most of all she was a best friend. I think of her often and I realize the first two years were easier somehow. Sometimes the longer a person is gone, the more you realize you miss them. Death is like that. They are always a part of you. The best parts of you. I lost three of the favorite women in my life, my grandma, my little sister and my Aunt Dee and sometimes its a lot of pain. I miss them - all for different reasons, but all the same- so much. I am certainly a better person because they are part of my life- and still as I grow as a person, the gifts that they gave me, I carry on. That is what life is... So to all my cousins, I think of you now, especially Dees boys.I think of my sister and my mom, my grandpa who is quite ill. We are all in this together, missing the ones that left before us, in what seems like way to soon for us. Im not sure I call it sadness. Its more like memories and a longing. And although I am not Jewish, my husband and his family are. I love the Jewish religion and the whole idea of Yom Kippur. Forgiving yourself and others and admitting mistakes vowing to become a better person. I am a better person and hope to keep moving in that direction. For me, it is also about remembering all the gifts that you have and being grateful for what youve got. Receiving blessings and being generous. It is a beautiful way to love....... and to live...........
Posted on: Thu, 02 Oct 2014 09:46:36 +0000
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