So Im currently going through a college crisis, deciding if I want to continue right now or take a break. Today I was praying about it a lot, and in a lot of ways I want to continue, but I started thinking about whats really important in the end. Id say the amount of problems Ive been having ever since Ive started college is maybe an indication that I need to take a little break and re prioritize some things. And Im not saying a college education isnt important.. Ive always had a dream of helping others over myself. Ive tried to achieve that through my major, but theres a nagging feeling that Im still not going down the right path. If theres one thing Ive learned about myself, my gut feeling is usually right. Theres an unimaginable amount of people in the world who need more than I do. An education, food, a place to live, God, hope. Sometimes I wonder if maybe the reason college isnt working out for me right now is because I have a bigger purpose and obligation in life and I dont think I can execute whatever plan Im supposed to from where I am now. I remember back when I was much closer with God, and how happy and positive and inspired I was to spread his word, and how great I felt when I did. I havent felt this way in a long time, I feel like Im just going day by day in a haze with no real purpose. I know a lot of people feel turned off by religion or are unsure and maybe even disgusted by it, and Im not trying to be preachy, but God has done way to many great things in my life for me not to tell people about it. I feel like its people that have been through a lot that are used as a way to spread his word, and sometimes I wonder if thats my purpose. Im not sure where Im supposed to be right now, or what exactly Im supposed to be doing, but he definitely has a way of opening doors for me or clearly closing them in my face. And I personally feel like right now hes closing this door in my face. Not sure where this rant is coming from, but I felt the need to post this.
Posted on: Mon, 10 Nov 2014 22:21:02 +0000
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