So, Im writing.. Just about 10 minutes ago my sis Anna just brought something to my attention... I havent even been here, this place physically and spiritually, for a year..... Now, Im a Rhema Student.... Im. Here..... Let me backtrack for a second... A year ago, I was homeless with my two kids (by September it had been about a month out on the streets of NYC). In August of last year I picked up what I could carry, my two kids, and walked out of one of the worst situations of my life. The details of that are crazy and disgusting; something from the pit of hell designed to destroy life slowly and painfully. Ill be sharing that story some day with many, many women and men that need it... As she said I havent even been here for a year... It seriously dawned on me the realness of that statement... For too long on my FB I have kept quiet about many, many triumphs because I wouldnt want to annoy anyone with ongoing posts, but you know what... Its not about you, dont like my posts? Get off my FB or get real and listen. I will not be Sometimes silent anymore. My voluntary muzzle is off forever. A YEAR ago.. theres so much to those words for me.. for all of us! BUT GOD. When I saw no way out of everything little thing that I was going through, GOD made a way. HE is able. HE saved my children and I. The journey here to Broken Arrow back in December of 2013 was HELL. I was hunted before I left. I felt like a refugee looking over my shoulder til the first plane took off, and even then. I thought I had made an even bigger mistake by leaving. They were the longest flights and waiting periods of my life. Have you ever traveled with a 4 and 1 year old? Try 5 hour layovers and bags no one reaches a hand to help you with. The growth I see in my life... tears fall seeing the change. The person I was you all who know me now wouldnt even glance back to see if youve recognized me. God reminds me all the time of that.. When I ask Him, God why do I still do this or that? Why cant I just kick that? He reminds me of the time. How long of my life have I lived without Him? Without seeking Him? It hasnt even been a year since I gave my life to Christ... That wows me, floors my mind. BUT GOD. He specializes in the turn arounds. Turn to Him and your life will be rocked and changed for the better. As I sat in the first day of orientation this immense joy came over me of being HERE. I was going crazy trying not to go crazy and scream and shout and run and dance. I have been propelled forward with arms wide open ready to go for God. My entire being cries out: Is 6:8 HERE AM I SEND ME! I am so ready. So ready to go, whether it be here or there, like a racehorse behind the gate at the starting line. Ready to take off with Jesus. Ready to scale the mountain ranges and explore the depths with Him. To climb through and through the trenches; To hold fast to His everlasting Words. To give God the glory in it all, worship withholding nothing, run without the shackles, dance with no reserve, to feel His pure joy coursing through my veins... To be the victor in a life that was hopeless, pointless, and set up for eternal death. In Him I am victorious. I am FREE.
Posted on: Fri, 05 Sep 2014 19:03:50 +0000
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