So its 1 day until surgery. Im sitting here watching the recovery DVD again with my Mom (her first time) -- tears pooring at the site of the patient on the video, which in turn is causing me to be terribly sad -- and watching with Jeff, my bf -- whos been nothing but the best support ever. Im so thankful to have two very special people with me as I start this -- no, continue this journey. It means so much to know that people care. I have a great FB support base as well and I am thankful for the good thoughts and well wishes. To my haters I forgive you as I ask you to forgive me. Im turning a page and starting anew. Ive had ups and downs -- its called being human -- but through it all I have been blessed, humbled, encouraged, empowered and strengthened. Darren Ramsey I love you so much. You are and always will be my brother. I will see you soon and thank you for being with me through EVERY journey. The bond we have is one that is undefined, mysterious and powerful. Every adventure, every non-adventure, every flop, every sucess -- we have always penned an exciting chapter, each word, each page --- its been a blast! I look forward to more. Cynthia Warren You have been a pain in my side from day one LOL jk --- you are a nut, a hoot, my friend, my confidant -- my sister from a different mister. Hold it down while I am gone from work. I love you sis! No one will ever replace you and I will see you soon for many more laughs! Id like to ask for everyones thoughts and prayers as I embark on this new journey. What exactly am I doing? Hell, I dont know half the time. I dont have this master plan all laid out. What I do know is that Im doing what feels right for me. Like the rest of the world, Im finding my place, making my mark and searching for love, acceptance and happiness. Im somewhat making waves for a younger generation, letting them know its ok not to be ok (shout out to Jesse J). You do not have to be a size 2, nor fit some mold of what others think you should be. You dont have to be ghetto or educated. You dont have to be anything other than WHO you ARe. Its ok to be white, black, muslim, christian, athiest, jew, gay, lesbian or TRANS. Id rather live a moment as FREE than a life time of chains trying to be normal. I want to encourage you all to love yourselves, love others, put the bullshit and the bitter down and go on about your business. Live, Laugh, Love - right. Id also like to remind you to Pay it Forward. Ive seen so many headlines on the tv and heard so many breaking news stories on the radios of hate, murder, misfortune and strife -- babies being found in back backs, grown people killing toddlers, expolititicans encouraging trans people to off them selves -- where does the hate stop and the love begin. IT BEGINS WITHIN. Then you extend it outward. For those of you who have been in my life know that Im blunt, honest, crazy, wild -- but you also know that I can be one of the most caring people. I want to let that be an example of what being human is -- Its not perfection. Its toying with your own demons, hitting rock bottom and yet rising to the top. If I can make my dream come true - so can you. With that being said, Im heading off line -- preparing for Facial Femminzation Surgery in the morning that includes high spead 3d orital rim bone shaving, scalp/hairline advancement, brow lift and fat grafting. Im having my cheeks and lips augmented, rhinoplasty, septoplasty (ok yall a nose job in lay terms lol) and an abdominoplasty. Ill be in surgery for about 8 hours. This is my life right now. Afterwards, I have to be strong and follow through on the rest of my goals: Legal name change, DL change, gender change on Passport, returning to work --- a corporate job in ALABAMA --- I do not know what to expect from the powers that be but Ive been blessed to have the love and support of so many of my coworkers. Some put two and two together and some it was never an issue to begin with but I am taking this stand in Alabama just as Vandy Glenn did in GA -- I CAN be trans and I CAN be in a blue collar professional world. Look out life, my next chapter awaits. This diva is #StillBlessed I love you all and pray for the redemption of my soul, my family, my friends and my COUNTRY. #GodBlessAmerica #ok-ok #mushyme #nervousbutexcited #femmefatal #DrMarkZukowski #chicago xoxo
Posted on: Sat, 19 Oct 2013 02:25:59 +0000
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