So just trying to pretend like you havent gone anywhere and that your going to be calling my phone or walking on in our door & seeing khyra run up and jump in your arms instantly and her try not to detach from you like she did every time you were here all these moments we shared with you on such a regular basis lately especially are the ones Im trying to pretend havent come to an end .. Ive done well keeping myself flat out with these kids everyday sense we found out wed lost you & its tomorrow just the thought alone is able to make a mess out of me knowing everything I have just avoided talking about and accepting has truly happened will all be very much real & no longer able to be blocked out tomorrow , I know that youre gone gt I just dont want to have to say that last final goodbye to you tomorrow and knowing that I have to to face the truth and like everyone else there tomorrow we will all begin our healing progress and begin learning how to all deal with the loss of some one we all loved so much and considered a part of our big family .. gt I never want to have to say goodbye I wish you were here to see just how many people truly do care for you and how many of us will never forget you and how much love for you my little girl had gt and how yous two shared a bond no one even had a chance at breaking I fall apart hearing her telling me uncle gts up in the sky now mummy and why cant he come back ,, just you wait mummy Im a go get him Ill be back in 2 secs .... my little girl and us all here do not understand why your gone but we know your at peace now and although we could stop your tears and turn them into a smile within minutes of you walking through our door I guess that youre smiles were only something that temporarily held back so much deeper pain then you even quiet let on .. Im so sorry we didnt see it to the depth in which it laid I will never forget you & the fact you promised me only days before you left this world that youd help me do my gardens but you got of that you sneaky bugger so I hope your up there and watching me bust my ass out there finishing them untamed gardens Ive still got growing at a incredibly fast speed Id have a jungle if I left it much longer now your gone I guess I have to let u off not doing them I dont have a choice my brother ; ( tomorrow Ill say my goodbyes one moment I dont want to wake up to is almost here again ... we love you qpeeee ♡♡
Posted on: Mon, 28 Jul 2014 16:33:40 +0000
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