Talking about PTSD is never easy I have reached out to a lot of people about PTSD and about Viet Nam Vets. It was never easy for me to do. Each and every time I spoke of the damned war reminded me of my own struggles with memories of it. Those memories tear open old scars and hurt just like these things happened just yesterday. Sometimes I pushed on, as I have done recently, despite my own troubles until I could physically go no longer. I have a good friend who says she is like a candle in the wind. It speaks of how fragile a person is when they are dealing with a mental wound that does not heal. She posted a lot on veterans websites about PTSD. In those early days of PTSD discussion on the Net, the websites for PTSD discussions were worse than a fight between cats. Linda strove to encourage others to not give up. Linda gave me encouragement to try to help others. With the inspiration of my good friend Linda B , the candle in the wind, I have tried to turn on a light in the darkness. Each time I try to help others with their issues with PTSD or the people they know that have PTSD, I think that this time may be the last time I can say anything. I think my own death is very near. I hope that when taps play over me for the last time, my legacy on Earth shall be that I served with honor but what I will be remembered for was the help I tried to give to others who also suffered because of or with PTSD. It is not a cause I fight for. It is not for glory that I seek. It is not an obligation because I have I survived. It is a belief that I could help others with PTSD and tried to do that. I would like to encourage others to speak of their pain dealing with PTSD. It will be difficult with a lot of frustration and remembered pain. You will feel vulnerable, no longer safe in silence nor hidden behind walls of anger. You will face what you fear will make you appear weak. When you make the effort to talk to others about PTSD, you lighten your own load a bit but as you do, you will also be a candle in the wind, fragile and vulnerable but there remains a light in darkness even if it is just a small one. There will always be pain and suffering and let there be those candles in the wind that bring light in the darkness.
Posted on: Sat, 03 Aug 2013 18:06:16 +0000
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