That feeling you get when someone who promised repeatedly that they had changed does the exact same old them thing again. *sigh* Note to self ~ NEVER depend on any mortal other than yourself. Youd think after all I have been through I would have learned this one by now. Adding to this mini rant: I really dont mind helping others when and if I am able. I do get tired of being peoples only turn to guy and they are so far removed from my life they are not even aware of my struggles because if they had been they wouldnt have had their hand open. Never once thinking Hey, I bet Amanda could use some help once in awhile. or I wonder how Amanda is coping with all of the big things that are going on in her life. Yes I am strong and only by the grace of God I continue to make it but its still nice for people to see past all of that and sometimes see a single mother raising two boys who recently lost several key members of her life within a short period of time, is living paycheck to paycheck trying to keep growing boys clothed and fed plus is homebound because she is physically unable to drive and hasnt been able to in several months which takes away from her independance and causes moments of irritability. Yeah, at times I wish someone would ask how I am instead of asking me to give or do something for them. I was already wondering about certain people that had re-appeared back in my life so I prayed over it. I asked and was shown the truth, again. I need to either be careful of what I ask for or be better prepared to handle the answer when its given. Okay, Father, just you and I like always. My apologies for even entertaining the idea of change with some people. Eyes forward and focused at all times! END OF PITY PARTY TIME. GO BACK TO YOUR REGULARLY SCHEDULED PROGRAMS. *bangs head on desk*
Posted on: Sun, 26 Jan 2014 00:27:50 +0000
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