The only difference between you and I is that Ill admit openly and publicly that theres an emptiness inside me; the same emptiness that churns out drug addicts. Its as big as a canyon to me. Most people have this same emptiness, this same need for something else, thats what vacuums do.. they by nature require filling. You can deny what Im saying. You can say that Im full of shit, that Im just trying to justify something in myself, but if youre honest, youll know what Im saying is true. You can hide it, repress it, avoid it or even think that youve mastered it, but its there. Ive been a dreaded people-pleaser all my life. Its now compulsory. I have this emptiness that needs to be filled by helping others, by gratitude, by knowing Ive made their life their life easier. I dont regret it. But Im not sure the way I go about filling the void (which Ive never been able to actually fill, only temporarily and intermittently cover, like a band aid) is necessarily the healthiest solution to this problem. It has clouded my judgement and hampered my dreams and desires. So why am I telling you this? Because I have the confidence and self-respect enough to recognize my flaw and make an attempt to correct it. Whats your excuse?
Posted on: Fri, 19 Sep 2014 01:02:43 +0000
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