There have been so many asking me how Angel is doing and please understand that I was not trying to ignore anyone but didnt want to post how well she was doing and then her take another turn for the worse. So I woke up this morning with all intensions of giving everyone wonderful news, that she has been eating and gaining strength for the last 6.5 days, and she decided she was going to stop eating again. My heart dropped and I began an emotional spiral downfall. I ran to the feed store and bought more alfalfa hay and luckily she nibbled on it, but I know just by looking at her there is something wrong again. Her eyes tell me she doesnt feel well and wow is she mad about it. I feel my heart pounding in my chest and the thought of going through, again, what we went through for a month just sickens my stomach. I would never give up on her but I havent even recuperated from it yet. I asked God if I was being punished, and as a catholic I realize it doesnt work like that, but there is no explanation why we are both going through this. Negative on EPM, negative on WNV and encephalitis, all blood panel work great. I realize how difficult it is to wonder how she is doing and not hear anything and I am sorry but I hate posting she is doing better, she is doing worse, time and time again. The prayers and love have helped immensely and we are so grateful, I really dont know what else to say. I am struggling to hold on to my emotional sanity right now but I know I need to stay strong for her.
Posted on: Mon, 19 Jan 2015 23:08:59 +0000
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