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Theres some days where i would take a pic and after when i have time to see how it looks i get dissapointed today i took some pictures where i tried.to smile and start laughing as hazel was.laughing to the camera(sonething that doesnt look so good as i laugh like a joker) today that happend i. Saw then and went immediately. Ugggh sooo gross i look fat tired.old and.ugly i dont like it!!! And get disappointed of my self as how hard has been losing weight as my medication doesnt let me, and i cant be on.diet as i breastfeed, i hate how i look!! havent sleep enough and my hair i havent made my hair for long i guess i even forgot i have hair!!! But then... I see a beautiful smile there of my daugther and remember i gain weight as my body protect a little life who will be my everything today and i need medication to be healthy for her that im giving the best to my girl while breastfeeding that my sleepless night get full of.laughs in the morning when she.wakes up and see me; i look perfect for her and everytime she smile she doesnt look my imperfections just my beauty as her mom whi cant protect her when she is afraid and is happy she makes.me.remember that our bodies,and time to live is just borrowed that she will not be always a baby who will need me and will try to get my attention one day she will.go to school go out and ill be here again having a lot of time.for me and.regreting each minute wich one i did not spend with her to hug her change that dirty diaper (wich one she laughs when i go yucky) or even that fart that make both of us laughs one day i know.i wont.. as i am giving her all myself for her today because she is all my life,, my inspiration my motivation my love... my everything and you know one day she.might be.30th and.will still.being my baby and i will still giving everything for her!! But today i learned a picture isnt how you look is about the memory and story behind it the small details !!! I dont mind how i look as everyone can notice I AM A HAPPY MOM THERE HOLDING MY REASOn TO LIVE!!! MY BEAUTIFUL DAUGTHER!!
Posted on: Sun, 17 Aug 2014 02:02:30 +0000

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