Think I am probably the last to conclude the year 2014. Although its already the first day of 2015, but I always believe to study the past in order to better plan the future. (I was also maybe too drunk to do it earlier) Life was mainly lukewarm with highs and lows evenly spread. Thankful for all the support granted by my buddies, friends and colleagues. Well you know who you are, so I will not name you guys one by one. Especially thankful for those who add a smile on my face however flitting it maybe. For those whom moved closer in my life, I am thankful for your patience and presence :) . For those whom decided to move away, I wish you best of luck for your future endeavors. Whether our meetings in life have been positive or negative, Ive learned a lot through our mutual experiences. (You have probably decided I am an asshole or idiot, but I assure you the feeling is mutual :p) Someone told me, my happiness should not originate from others and should be within, but Ive seen and done some things so dark that the Devil will probably cringe. I am almost an empty shell, devoid of feelings and values. Am eternally thankful for those who fill this void with the love, concern and standards that I can emulate and hopefully learn. Thats why I now think only of happy things!! :p (e.g. my highly revving bowling ball hitting the rack in the 1-3 pocket and leaves a solid 10 pin hahaha) I was once a survivor, the pragmatic, nevermind the means type of survivor, but now I hope I can find more center of the path ways to survive. After all, life is too short to be spent scheming and revenging. So no more Death to my enemies kinda wish, for death is sometimes a release *smirk*. I am still wrinkled at the sides, but I am trying hard to be good, may the gain in age and knowledge help :) and when I meet my maker in the future I can be proud to stand tall. Still going through a messy divorce (of my parents), it made me realized a few things. Firstly, it takes courage and strength to move out of ones comfort zone to end a relation that has no more meaning to it. Secondly, no matter how old the children are, divorce of your parents will have an impact. Lastly, no support is greater than those of family. Of course, I do not expect all of my friends to understand, as what a colleague have said somewhat coldly before, but to my dark amusement, Ive not went through this before, I cannot help and/or advise you haha :) I may have to make a huge professional decision in 2015, hopefully I have not fallen from the grace of Lady Luck, as always, Id rather be lucky than good. Wed all see how it goes from there but we all know that if we do not make a decision before 40, it usually goes downhill from there. In Love, Ive finally met someone whom I can say is an intellectual equal for me, or maybe even somewhat smarter, it does help of course that shes pleasing to my eyes. :) From the way things are now, I can only say it will be challenging, but you do not see the sunrise from the peak without climbing the mountain. Hopefully shes game for it too, for I am sure the road up will be fulfilling besides challenging. The sunrise will be secondary, but its the journey I am looking forward to. To her, I want to tell her, we are really not that different. Love to all who cared and those who still do. Death *Guanyin Ma / God / Allah forbid* to my enemies hahahaha. Have a wonderful 2015. Cheers!!
Posted on: Thu, 01 Jan 2015 15:21:47 +0000
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