This is just thought for my mind! I was always told that family is important and the only ones that you can truely depend on even in a time of crisiss. I no longer believe that because here my dad is not doing to good. Phone calls were made to my sister (Carolyn Bolyard), my brothers (Duane Crawford, Jesse James) & my son ( Michael Crawford). Those calls were made by Crows (our dad) girl-friend (Stephanie Hedglin) or by my sibblings mother (Doris Fitterling). I was told they had tried all afternoon to get ahold of me, and that I must not of had any signal. I know that was a lie because I was in town of Warrensburg when I received a text from my neice and my sister. I called my sister and she is the one that told me about my dad a couple hours later. I may not agree with the way I get treated by this family of mine but I do want to say it is a shame that my niece and my sister are the only ones who had any rememberance of me being a part of this family. To the woman who gave birth to me, Is this how you treat someone that helped you when you couldnt pay all your bills? and then when I go broke I get shunned because I have nothing to give or to help you. You remember that this worthless piece of crap you raised is also a human being with feeling. So there fore you need to quit showing favoritesm on your other two children cause you do have three. I already knew at a very young age who you did not want. I was not as stupid as you all thought I was and as for you not liking me because I speak my mind well step back and thank your self because you are the ones that taught me to speak my mind and now hold it against me. I have done everything to get acceptance, approval, and love from you but all I got was degraded, criticized, and push away. I really feel pity on you especially when the day comes that you get judged and Karma comes back to bite you in the ass. I just hope I am there to see it. As for family being important, I sure do believe that by the looks I got when I walked into that waiting room in the ICU for my dad. Yes I am letting all these people know exactly what kind of person you are and how you actually hated and couldnt stand one daughter. You have humiliated, degraded, shunned, criticized me for the last time. I from here on out promise to give you your same medicine then you tell me how it feels. I tell you it does not feel good to know that the person that is suppose to be your mother and love you unconditionally really cant stand to look at her or be around her. You should of just given me away. I then probably wouldnt dispise you so much. I really hope you tell everyone that I am full of shit cause you know that is a lie which is something you do so well along with being two faced to your own child. I dont believe that family is the most important because I have no one that I would want as family now. The way you treated me has made me who I am today strong, independant, a fighter and a survivor. I have a heart that feels for others not for me, I would help anyone if I can no problem, I am a giver not a taker, I am not selfish, I am honest and I have more guts than any one I know. I have alot of true bonded strong friendships so they are what is important they are the ones who dont judge me because I speak my mind or when I am broke and have nothing to give but my friendship they are there. Friends True Friends are most important because I can depend on them to be there if I need them. When I needed strength from family or morral support when I had my medical leave you didnt care enough to see if I needed anything not even morral support, when I had not water or electric for those four months on medical leave did you come and see if i needed anything no. I remember I use to call you everyday to check on you then it hit me wham the phone works both ways and so does the concern for family. I was very humiliated last night and it was very obvious that I was not wanted there. So if Crow should ask you be sure to tell him that I wont be there because you and the rest of the family that you have turned against me dont want me there and you all made sure to make me feel uncomfortable being there. I really wished you were not my family cause I feel the same toward you as you do me. I may not of been Crows favorite but he didnt treat me nothing like you have he at least does not roll his eyes back when I stop by or I stop to see my neices baby in the hospital or see my day in the hospital. I have no idea what I have ever done to you except cut off paying your bills. I would and have used my utility money to pay your bills and my utilities get shut off and no thank you no nothing but those damn eyes rolled back in your head. If i disgust you that much at least have the balls to tell me so and I promise this will be one person you will never hear from or see again. So people if you have a good and loving family those are the ones thats important, if you have family like what I have then no they are not important. Friends can be more family than blood family. Life can be hard and mean but to survive is to live, to love is to live, to trust is to live! All I ever wanted was acceptance, approval, praised, loved & wanted from you, I really dont think that was to much to ask for. Pretty Simple!!
Posted on: Wed, 05 Mar 2014 13:26:27 +0000
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