This is my final written post. I will post pictures sometimes and maybe leave a comment about them, but no more status posts on this page. Former friends, exes, etc. have tried to make amends. Some of you have tried recently; even last week. I realize you want to be cool again; at the very least apologize to me. Everyone knows who they are, what they did/doing, but it seems some need to be reminded. A bullet point or two refer to one person, while others refer to more than one. Some of you will find yourself in every one; even if none of them is referring to you at all. Thats what your issues do to you; make you paranoid or have you ego-trippin. *Some of you are so evil that you will never hear the sound of my voice again. *Im either not interested anymore, never was interested (some of you were told over and over again in person, by email and text, that I wasnt romantically interested or attracted to you in that way, yet you believed I was even when I never behaved as if I liked you like that) and wont ever be interested. *You are devious. Its scary how ugly your true core being is. I see your spirit hanging outside of you. Its so dark and its face shows your intentions. Eerie and ominous. *My stomach turns when I look at you. You disgust me. *I cant be friends with people that have Displacement of Feelings, Borderline Personality Disorder, Psychological Projection behavior or any of the other disorders and defense mechanisms on the list. If you dont trust me when I have done nothing wrong against you or anyone else, you have a problem, therefore I cant keep you around. What for when you will question every word I say; every action and motive. You believe what others told/tell you when it should be obvious they lied/lying! What for you ask? Im not at liberty to tell you, but you should be smart enough to know why. So much time passed by. You believe people that are your enemy when Ive been a friend. You know how these people are and you believe them over me?? Even your own enemies. Why do people lie in the first place?? To gain something. But this doesnt matter because none of it wouldve happened in the first place if you didnt have the issues you have. Anyway, dealing with being questioned, etc. is not friendship; thats me always, ALWAYS trying to explain things and smooth stuff over because your feelings are hurt or youre mad about something you think I said, did, feel or live out in my life. You made me weary from it all, among other things. I fell back a long time ago and didnt try again unless I was made to feel like some maturity and sincerity developed in you. I was wrong about you. Eventually, I had to leave you alone when it became clear exactly who and what you are inside. *After all these years that have gone by, really???? Thats how you feel?? That was really selfish and showed me that you are self-absorbed. Its like you just didnt get through hearing what I had just said. It was all about YOU and what YOU were going through; what YOU were feeling; what YOU needed, etc. You dont listen. Nope. Cant do it; however, youre the only person Id be cool with again if you get your emotions together and were ready to be a REAL friend. You cant trust the wrong people, and you have to love yourself in a more positive way. I understand you and why you are the way you are right now. You just need to be honest with yourself about yourself. The first step to healing is acknowledging theres a problem. You are beautiful! Dont keep people around that dont really care about you. I dont care who they are; even if its family. You dont need their validation. Validate yourself and appreciate the sincerity that comes from people that really care about you and love you. Keep people around you that wont mistreat you. Dont be friendly with fans in the way that you are. Thats too dangerous! Youve reached a point where you have to draw lines; boundaries. You dont need to be so personable with people just to keep your fan base. Know how much to give, but keep the rest private. And reach for higher goals!!!!!!! Your work is too damn good and different to stay nestled online! At times, I think youre afraid of success on a grander scale. The world needs you. You need to FLY!!! Ive told you this time and time again. When you get yourself together in the ways I believe you know you need to, you know how to find me. I cant be around you when youre like this. Ive given you plenty of advice, and I cant deal with the complaints anymore. You permit the things you complain about. You walk right through doors of Discontent, and you do it ON PURPOSE! Thats a problem you need to fix. Even when I deactivate this page, and youre not able to find me on FB anymore, youre smart enough to know how to find me elsewhere online and offline. You have enough pertinent information to do so. Some of you have tried to make amends without apologizing at all, let alone doing anything else to make up for what youve done. You just come around or call just to strike up a conversation as if thats enough. Really??? AND you havent resolved your issues, yet think Im going to let you in again. Some of you read a couple sentences and think you know all about me. A couple of you actually think every single post written on this page is about you and that I go on your Facebook, which I dont and wont. My world doesnt revolve around you at all. It wasnt and aint THAT serious, but your ego or issues make you believe it was and is. They made you see, hear, read (some of you dont have good reading comprehension skills even when things are plainly stated in one or two sentences. Yeah. Literally. Or did your issues make you disbelieve what I said?) or feel things coming from me that werent even there at all. Even in the face of evidence of what I ACTUALLY said, it wasnt enough to keep your issues at bay. Shoot, even after evidence of what YOU said, your issues STILL had you trippin. I bet a lot of you think that because there arent any comments to read from others, Im on here talking to myself. I have this page set to not be able to comment. I do have an inbox, phones, and yahoo just as you do, and there are my other FB accounts where people can contact me to share their thoughts. If I shared the previous posts just on my main FB, it wouldnt be read by others because that page isnt under my real name. Im NOT making fun of you. Im just pointing out how your issues make you perceive things in ways you shouldnt. *caps are for emphasis* I TOLD YOU THIS SEVERAL TIMES IN PERSON, BY EMAIL, AND BY PHONE TO NO AVAIL. MAYBE SEEING IT ON FB WILL MAKE IT CLEAR FOR YOU, and you wont call or come to my house anymore; it will sink in how wrong youve been about everything; you will see how toxic you are to yourself and others and are in need of therapy, and that you messed up a great relationship or friendship. YOU did that; not me. When I tell you Im done, Im done. You need to believe that. Whether or not you make amends with Karma or try to with me, Ive moved away from what was done. Theres only one thing that still bothers me, but as I said, Im on the mend from that transgression against me. I have wished all of you well. I am a peace lover, and I go on in peace. I have my main Facebook under a different name where I socialize with family and REAL friends--mentally and emotionally healthy people I talk to on the phone; Happy people I hang out with; those that encourage and advise me; theres mutual respect and consideration; folk that show love; Reciprocity in general. I will keep this page up briefly. I cant say how much longer it will be here. I will check back here infrequently for messages from those positive people and Happiness seekers, so please be patient. To others that are looking for me, including certain people from high school, depending on who you are, I will respond. A couple of you, I wont speak to here, but will speak if I run into you. Blessings....
Posted on: Sat, 15 Mar 2014 15:05:14 +0000
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