This time of the year is bittersweet for me. I am thankful that I get to spend another Christmas with my family. Also, I am still hurting from the unforeseen suicide of my best friend last year. He was one of the few people who didnt expect me to be great. He just expected me to be his friend. We loved each other despite our flaws but many of our flaws were similar. He loved women like I loved women. After I gave my life to Christ, I seen the devil attacking him in the spirit. I told him what I had seen and he really wanted to change his life. I even remember him telling me that he had attended a few church services with a girl he was dating. I was happy but I knew that those demons wouldnt stop tugging at him. I prayed that he would just give it all to Jesus and let God fight the battle. I often blame myself and think about what more I could have done. I know this is wrong but I do. Its like, If Im suppose to be this great man of God, how could I let Satan trick and undermine my best friend right before my very eyes? Suicide is claiming too many lives. Life is a gift and only God decides when we shall depart from this earth. At this very moment, I know my homie is at peace. I just pray that his family, friends, and I continue to find peace as we all still struggle with the pain of his sudden departure. I have made it my duty to bring more people to God. It is the only way we can fight against the enemy. I refuse to let what Satan did to my best friend happen to anyone else if I can help it. The pain from this loss has motivated me to walk into my calling and begin my journey with God into ministry. God is walking side by side with me and John-Eric is smiling down rooting his homie on as I go to battle. One love people.
Posted on: Wed, 17 Dec 2014 19:22:46 +0000
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