To Live or Die…. September 9, 2013 Devastated by an unanticipated phone call… Being a veteran battle tested point guard… I knew it was time to stop dripping I had to shoot or pass the ball… Either way laying in wake was my forever altered state… Blessed with a 3rd eye of seeing the unseen… The opportunity presented itself to be redeemed…Knocking on the door of year 54 carrying a bag of uncertainly of just how many more…. The law of average whispering in my ear….The message: I have more time behind me then in front of me here… Armed with the question of how to fight this cancer… With my rebel ways…I did my due diligence to find the answer….Do I gamble on outrunning this silent monster for the rest of my unmeasured days….Against the risk of this silent cannibalistic killer catching up to me eating me alive from the inside out… I’ve had my share of life threats but this one here was a different animal…A very different heavy weight bout… In my mind one for me to lose by a rout…All these years priding myself on facing my fears with no tears…The face of death appeared causing me to blink… My mind filled with so much confusion I couldn’t think….Knowing what its like due to losing my own son I decided not to run… My mother’s heart became the link I didn’t wanna break….The potential of a surgical mistake is deemed low but for me that’s still great… The decision was hard… Trusting a mortal man hands blessed by his own God…When it was over I was left bloody and scarred… 6 deep robotic incision stab wounds and a catheter bag later…Am regurgitating… Violently hip upping…Bloated stomach full of chronic oral and anal releasing gas pain… Am left wondering what have I gained…With only time left too tell me if it was worth it too remain… I knew what it was like to temporary live… I now know what its like to temporary die…& continue to ride…This is my war report 1 week after being on the bloody battle field with Cancer… She proposed a tough question… I gave her an easy answer…Yet I feel like a big fish trapped in a small pond…Am calling on my guardian angels too spread their Purple angelic wings around me & wave their magic wands….After being so close yet so far from being gone…. To live or die…
Posted on: Mon, 09 Sep 2013 14:12:52 +0000
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